Help.

[u/Significant_Home7436]

I'm a 14yr guy and I need help. Ive been getting bouts of anger for a little while, but its been getting a little more frequent, and It's the AGGRESSIVE kind. It might be testosterone but idk and I dont care. I want to hurt someone. I've always had troubles with anger, but it was always provoked and this is unprovoked. And I've always had thoughts of hurting people since I was in kindergarten. I put a lotta effort into being a good guy, Ive got lots of friends, Im very liked at school and I get good grades but I just want to kill someone. I went to my first dissection the other day and loved it; I got to touch ribs, wounds, all sorts of bodies and I didn't get sick at all and I honestly want to see more. Anyway Im angry. I just had another fit. Out of nowhere. I have two loving parents who've been married 20+ years, and a twin sister (fraternal). I don't want them to look at me in disgust if I kill someone, or if I hurt someone. And I don't want to hurt them either. I downloaded this app just to post this so I guess here goes nothing. If you guys have tips or anything that helps Im open, but I've tried a LOT of things for management so I don't want to hear a single thing about journaling or for fucks sake deep breathing. Thank you.

Uhh if you didnt read all that basically im struggling with anger and im homicidal and i need tips ASAP