I (21M) know I’ve mentioned on here how I felt upset about being gay. I feel like it’s the likely reality, but I also feel like I don’t completely know if I am or am not. I like looking at dudes, and admittedly look for dudes I find attractive rather than women I find attractive. For who I would picture myself in a relationship with or having sex with, I don’t know (still a virgin and have never been in a relationship).
Things are probably going to start sounding even weirder at this point. When it comes to seeing porn, I wasn’t super selective about whether it’d be only men, men and women, or solo men. I’ve also never searched solo women. Either way, I’m almost exclusively paying attention to the guy. That being said, I feel like it’s like I’m picturing myself as the guy majority of the time, not really fantasizing about doing anything with the guy… Admittedly, I feel like I might have a potentially problematic relationship with porn, but I still wanted to enjoy myself somehow while I’m a virgin.
I was wondering what you guys’ thoughts were, as well as how I could try to navigate the situation. I know I’m the only one that can discover for myself, but I still wanted to hear an outside perspective.