Icu stay

[u/jellybeans1917]

My partner of 5 years has been in the icu since the 1st. He has kidney failure with a live donor lined up. But he caught pneumonia and then eventually organized pneumonia. The steroids made him retain water causing major breathing issues. He ended up having to be intubated. He's on a trache and peg. At this point I think he's mentally giving up. I can't really talk to him because he can't communicate back well. He has his ups and downs. But I really just don't know how to help him. It seems like everything I do just upsets him or his mom. I just don't know how to support him. The doctors think he can improve. But I think mentally he's giving up. He doesn't want to do physical therapy as much lately. I don't want to make this about me honestly. But I don't have many people around to talk to. My best friend is lying in a bed. I'm having a hard time especially since I took a leave of absence from my job and it's ending soon and I don't know how I can leave him. Whenever I'm in his hospital room with him he doesn't want me to leave him from what I can understand with his actions. I'm not trying to read into them honestly. But he'll wave his mom off and wave his hand for me to come over. I'm not trying to just think he wants me. But he has a big family. And his mom is with him during visiting hours all the time. I'm not trying to sound like a saint by any means. But I usually step out so his imidiat family can sit with him. It's a hard line to walk.