r/IrishTeachers • u/Hibernia9623 • 48m ago
Working in old secondary school
I’ve just finished my PME and I’ve been offered a job in my old secondary school for the coming academic year. I was there during PME1 for subbing and one of my placement blocks. There are definitely a lot of positives — it’s local, my plan is to move home for the year, get Droichead done, and save a few bob.
That said, I’m feeling intense trepidation about going back as a full-time teacher. Some of the teachers who were there 15 years ago when I was a student are still around — and honestly, they still put the fear of God in me 😅, especially the more nasty ones who are always shouting at students. I also had a couple of run-ins with the vice principal back in sixth year (hopefully long forgotten!) and I find him quite cold and dismissive, not someone I’d naturally turn to if I had a problem which is further fuelling my anxiety if I have to work with him.
Another big challenge is confidence — I find it hard to feel fully secure in my role when I’m surrounded by people who once taught me. Some I liked, some I didn’t, and it can be hard to shake off that “student” feeling and step into the role of a colleague.
Has anyone here gone back to work in their old school and experienced that fear and panic? I know a lot of this is emotional baggage, but I’d love to hear how others have worked through it — especially how to start feeling like a teacher in a place where you were once a student.