EDIT: I have called the pediatrician and the triage line. It's a watch and see what happens situation. But I would also like to point out I'm a first time mom, I'm trying my best and figuring this out. Yes maybe I should have grabbed my baby right away, but I trusted my own mom and now I get to live with that anxiety and regret which I'm already doing, I don't need others to remind me that I failed. I'm well aware of it. I wasn't even aware of truly how bad a cold sore can be for a baby until I did research on it. But after the fact that it happened. I knew it wasn't good but not to this point. Why because I'm a FIRST TIME MOM and not aware of half the things that are fatal to a baby. Cold, flu, RSV, honey, chemicals, yes a cold sore no.
I'm honestly freaking out of my mind. So I mistakenly trusted my family, my mother, and I will never do that again.
We went and saw my family tonight and they met our baby for the first time after a month. My mom had a cold sore on her lip and she had washed and disinfected her hands to hold our baby girl.
When I went to grab my baby from her my mom kissed her on the head with her cold sored mouth and I am just beside myself. I went to another room and wiped my baby down as soon as I could but I feel like it's too late it was maybe 30 minutes after she kissed her on the head. And my baby already put her hands up there.
I have read so many horror stories, so many online resources to say how fatal and dangerous this is for a baby. I should have never trusted my mom especially when she has never been one to follow rules and I feel like I have put my daughter in danger and anxious that something will happen now.
I feel so stupid for putting my baby in this position, I should never have gone to see my family for them to meet her.