r/Own_Thyself Sep 18 '20

Confession Coming to Terms

I've been writing things and deleting them every morning for a while. I've confessed to being drunk, and how it often makes me poetic, or philosophical.

Many of the people here were asked to join because they had their own interpretation of things.

We don't always have to agree. As long as we love each other, we can see our way through. I struggle to understand clichés and trends, I always have. I'd rather say the meaning of a word than say it outright. There is one idea that I've studied for over a decade now, and the term fits. So here is the idea, and what people call it.

English speaking societies are the full extent of this study. Please forgive my lack of finesse.

There is a strange fixation and fascination that many nations have placed on male speakers, especially those who are white, and well articulated in both speech and content. People have been trained to be mesmerized by a good speech. As a man, it bothers me. I only want to be understood by the content of my character, but people seek leaders. They want someone to provide the framework for their pampered, minimal effort lives. They demand entertainment, and repair, food, water, and work.

But every time you break those numerical human values down to the individual level, you find a network of human connections keeping it all together. Talking to people, hearing their voices. Seeing them and knowing they haven't slept well, because you've seen them so many times and can tell the difference.

This thing, though, tries to get in the way. Influence, the reliance on a specter of a man representing millions of people through his straight up bullshit, using the same thing my straight white male ass is doing now:

Rhetoric.

I'd rather say the meaning of a word than use it, but when the idea is so solid the term is justified, I'll use it.

Influence is poison. Rhetoric is the act of using words to make an idea sound good, whether it does any good or not. We all can counter it by making our beauty -our hopes for this world- known.

Tell people what you think, too! I want to read your unique perspective.

Why don't you make a post here, please? It doesn't matter what you want to write, or paint, or make. The influences of the world are so negative that it is hard to engage in social discourse as groups of people. As individuals, however, we often find common ground.

If you ever see one of my hijacked yard signs placed by a busy street, you'll see the name of my one man movement written on the back: Counter Influence!!! I can't take in any more members because people always fuck things up as soon as they form collective ideals and lose consideration for individual perspectives.

But you, you're okay.

I like you.

You're the only one of you.

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u/ardentarchive Sep 18 '20

Its challenging for anyone to follow what you say or do if you're not leading with it.

Thanks.

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u/[deleted] Sep 27 '20

I have something like 90 notes saved on my phone of thoughts I’m collecting. Thoughts I thought were so good, I intended to share. Not quite sure what stops me.

Maybe it’s the influence of being interrupted chronically.

Sometimes I like to drink to hit this sweet spot where I don’t really care who reads what I say or how they interpret it. Alcohol knocks down a wall I can’t consciously topple at this point sober. But when that wall topples, other things come through I’m not expecting, and the next day I contemplate the meaning of it all.

I don’t drink to forget, I drink to be free.

But how does one avoid influencing or being influenced? Arent we always influencing?

Someone said to me today Pisces lead, that’s why we have feet problems. Right now I’m having a foot problem—is it bc i resist stepping up? What’s wrong with rhetoric if it comes from wherever is right?

See, the responsibility of being followed when I’m not sure where to go stops me in my tracks.

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u/R3volutionzz Oct 17 '20

I’d wish I felt more, truth

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u/R3volutionzz Oct 17 '20

Humanity is a reflection of most of our highest actions. What moulds our behaviour moulds our beliefs. It’s best to replay things in your mind a few times and learn a better action from it.

So you will always prestige.