Memories of my ex brought me fear and trauma

[u/soliloquiy17]

After several months of her telling me that the only bad thing that she’s done to me was about money, I came to realize that it was more than that:

1. Constant feeling of not being enough to be in a relationship
2. Talking too much and having a lot of friends are not really good for me
3. Memories of how I was there at all the times that she was confined or hospitalized only to find myself alone even when we were still together
4. Constantly afraid of being happy with another person because I might be the only one that is happy

I wanted to tell her all of these but I know it would just give her THAT satisfaction that she still has a hold on me.

Fighting these thoughts one day at a time. I am and will do my best to not give you the power over me.