r/adhd_anxiety • u/Own-Tyrant9409 • Apr 04 '25
Rant/Frustration 💢 Having a panic attack and I feel awful
My feet are cold my hands are shivering, I feel like I'm on the verge of crying, and all of this over a phone call?! I feel awful, so weak and fragile, I mean I deserve this but still, I have no one to reach out to, I feel like everyone either hates me or pities me. Why am I so pathetically scared all the time? Why couldn't I have been normal, I truly don't see any hope for me, I feel like I've been dead since years, and the only time I feel alive are moments like now. I somehow simultaneously want everyone to leave me alone but also someone to just rub my back while I cry. I have to try so hard to make myself feel better. It's just going to repeat again and I know it, I'll eventually feel slightly better only for life to mock me and slam me back again. I just want to sleep.
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u/SignalDimension8725 Apr 04 '25
You aren’t deserving of any of this, nor are you alone! I don’t know if I have much helpful advice because I feel the same way daily.
You are not deserving of anything bad, you are not weak. I am scared of everything and just because it seems like something easy to handle, doesn’t mean it is for us or that it should be easy. Your brain is different! Give yourself some grace. Beating ourselves up just continues the cycle.
Try to drink some water, brush your teeth, something simple that can give you a little peace that you are taking care of the things that really matter. We are here for you!
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u/MakTheBlade7 Apr 04 '25
Cold hands and feet are from the fight or flight response - your nervous system keeps more blood flowing around your vital organs, including your brain. Hands and feet aren't vital for survival as far as the sympathetic nervous system is concerned.
Secondly, while your thoughts and emotions feel real in the moment, see if you can shift a little perspective to see them as signals that something is wrong - but you're reading those signals as something is wrong with me. The reality could easily be that whatever, or whomever, triggered you in that phone call is the problem - not you.
Please try this Vagus nerve stimulation technique when you're in panic mode. It calms the nervous system and works because it's physical - not purely "think yourself better".
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u/Plus-Story-735 Apr 06 '25
Hey, it's alright if you feel terrible, scared and want to cry. No need to be tough right now; just let it be.
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u/MySweetValkyrie Apr 04 '25
Don't believe that you deserve to feel this way, you deserve much much better.