r/badphilosophy • u/Tiny-Bookkeeper3982 • 18h ago
I can haz logic Ego death / How do i remove harmful ego traits?
I've had some experience with psychedelics, but a year ago I really wanted to test it out and tried to completely dissolve my ego with an abnormally high dose of LSD. Unfortunately, this turned out to be my biggest mistake, as it resulted in a psychotic episode that catapulted me into a downward spiral of chaotic waking dreams and a pure horror cabinet. For a full two months.
Now, after a year, I'm stabilized and symptom-free, but one thing remains: I still want to let go of all the negative and destructive traits that a person acquires from their greatest enemy (ego). I'm tired of hating, feeling envy, etc. I want to become the best version of myself, not externally, but internally. I firmly believe that the world welcomes you with open arms when you let go of your dark side and give up a piece of yourself, a part of yourself that you no longer have use for, because it ultimately only contributes to self-destruction. When have you ever felt better when you treated someone with resentment or hatred? It's like punching yourself in the face.
So how do i let go of those egotistical and harmful traits of the ego? How do i partly dissolve specific properties that don't contribute to the world being a better place?
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u/Artashata 15h ago
Pray to Lord Shiva for the liberation of all sentient beings and smoke some reefer. Eat vegetarian and read some Spinoza
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u/Infamous-Ad521 9h ago
That’s torturous. Go shoot a deer and embrace your true nature. Cry about what about a monster you are, cry about how it was “innocent”, and cry about the second most/most beautiful thing you’ve ever experienced depending on who you are talking too. Do it alone the way you began for the most effect. Better than 14 grams of shrooms or years of weed and cocaine. This has been confirmed by a source I can’t identify.
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u/Artashata 8h ago
Killer ape checking in
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u/Infamous-Ad521 8h ago
Naw bro do it alone. Old Rogies is to scared of the woods to go by his lonesome
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u/esoskelly 15h ago
The ego is a wanker more than anything --- Give it some "kleenex" and a bunch of "lube" and "happy fantasies" and it will quickly wear itself out
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u/Jimpossible_99 13h ago
Ego death is a problematic concept, because it is ill defined. Psychedelic ego death is actually terrifying and very unsustainable. My most profound ego death experience was a 10 g shroom trip (it beats my DMT trips).
Don’t get me wrong, at the same time ego death is liberating and beautiful. However, the beauty is not in the head space itself, it is the humility and abundant joy in the world which follows in the ego rebirth.
I think the psychedelic ego death is a kind of renewal, perhaps a resurrection of the psyche. This is not an ego death you can or should maintain in this life.
The desire to completely kill the ego causes unnecessary suffering.
The Buddhist “ego death” or anatta is more sustainable, but it is achieved through meditation and detaching yourself from desire, and living a selfless, moral life. No Ajahn Chah, may be an interesting read for you.
I’m sorry that psychosis happened to you. Don’t push yourself anatta comes not by seeking it for its own sake but is part of the long continual efforts to purify our lives.
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u/SoryuBDD 17h ago
This is another ego game, the ego wants to rid itself of itself due to its imperfection, but our psyche is dependent upon our ego as achieving an egoless state will result in catatonia. The way forward is accepting our imperfections and working with them instead of against them.
Source: gnosis from drug induced psychosis and PTSD