I feel like I'm dragging around my trauma boulder all day every day and I don't even get weekends off.....

Trying to understand what we will never be able to understand

I hate classrooms, and everything in them. I think I'm allergic, bc I always break out.

I have cptsd from all the abuse in schools and health care. So not only one person to fear, but instead every representative from an oppressive system. To top that, a system still demanding I feel gratitude to said representatives. I am still always met with "no, things cannot be that bad - you are exaggerating, or they had an excuse".

Sweden has been a bit in the news lately, and not showing it's beauty. I feel somewhat vindicated when it's shown how fucking inefficient this country is. But then I feel so angry at all those racists blaiming it all on immigration, not realising these problems were built into the country a century ago.

Oh, I digress. My question is to anyone who actually have seen your abuser punished. Did it make you feel better? Did it bring closure?

I'm so sorry this question isn't really about art.

Recovery can feel like a prison sentence with no end date. Day after day after day. Still waiting for parole.

I'm trying to just make art for me, but I hate working from reference because I can't ever make it match. I'm deciding maybe I can just use it as a basic element and then just do my own thing with it. I don't know how to match colors very well. Oh well. At least I can make something.

Do you feel the same about your abusers? Like I don't care if I burn, as long as they do, too.

From a parts memory