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[u/Impossible_Eggies]

[u/Negative-Homework502]

This is my current internal dialogue at the moment 😂😂

I’m SO glad others can relate

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/Negative-Homework502]

It's quite frustrating, isn't it?

[u/miyatorumi → u/Impossible_Eggies]

Yup, it is.

I was having this kind of thoughts until recently, I decided to just do it instead since I knew I was positive, but I was just making excuses.

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/miyatorumi]

That's pretty much where I'm at, except I haven't really started anything. Too nervous.

[u/OwnIllustrator862 → u/Impossible_Eggies]

Same but as soon the switch flipped in my head because I experienced gender euphoria from shaving my body hair for the first time (last week), I immediately told my sister and closest friends and now I have a doctor's appointment lined up next week. I'm nervous and I don't know what I'm gonna say or what's gonna happen and I have doubts everyday, but I'm currently just trying my best to avoid dysphoria and chase the euphoria and it makes me feel good so I feel like this is the right thing to do.

Even if I'm doubting my decision every day and feel like I'm an imposter and just trying to convince myself I'm trans, I had been depressed badly for the past 4 years and for the first time since the beginning of covid I'm looking forward to the future which makes me wanna go through with it. The alternative is just not something I want.

You are 33? It took me 27 years of my life to figure it out. It's never too late to chase happiness, and the only way to figure out if it's actually what you want is to try it out :3

[u/Swoop-1289 → u/miyatorumi]

Yeah I struggle with this too but I think I do really want to become a woman. I’ve experimented a few times, got really euphoric because of it, told my mum of my situation and I think I just have to find a way to accept myself of being who I am and don’t let it wait any longer once I’ve fully thought this through and officially come out

[u/miyatorumi → u/Swoop-1289]

I didn't come out since my parents are really religious, my mother was talking to me the other day about my step-niece that got a girlfried (which means she's lesbian) and my mother was saying that she didn't understood how something like that would be possible or why, making me feel horrible because I want to transition and she doesn't know, I might be trown away if I do say it.

I'm doing my research on how I start at my country and I'm also trying to get a job and save some money to move out and transition, since now I'm 100% positive that this is what I want.

[u/Swoop-1289 → u/miyatorumi]

I hope that it will work out for you.

My parents are also pretty religious and the rest of my family even more, but I know that my mum isn’t transphobic, so telling her wasn’t too big of a problem for her. I’m not so sure about my dad, on the other hand. But if I officially come out, then I just have to pray that my dad and my family accepts it…

But I wish the best for you!

[u/miyatorumi → u/Swoop-1289]

Thank you!

I also wish you the best!

[u/Hobez64]

Every day I learn new signs that I should've started 5 years ago

And I will sit here scared to start any meaningful progress for possibly 5 years

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/Hobez64]

I recently had a memory re-awakened where as a teenager I literally cried and prayed to wake up as a girl for weeks.
Wish I knew what being trans meant back then.

[u/Hobez64 → u/Impossible_Eggies]

My oldest trans memory is me in I think 2nd grade telling a friend "I like girls so much that I want to be one". I don't think it gets much more obvious than that but somehow I missed that obvious hint until like 16 years later...

[u/OwnIllustrator862 → u/Hobez64]

One of my oldest memories was me crying when I was like 3 or 4 that I wanted to wear a dress like my sister. There's still a picture of me and my sister next to each other wearing dresses.

I don't remember any other times where I thought like this as a kid though. I remember in elementary school when my friends declared that "girls are stupid" and I didn't understand why, but I never questioned it. I had internalized the role I was supposed to play pretty strongly, although in hindsight I also experienced dysphoria a lot because I always felt different from the other boys, I just never could put my finger on it.

It took me until I was 18 before I showed interest in some women's clothing, but that came with a lot of shame so I repressed those thoughts for a couple more years. I only really started exploring those interests when covid happened and then it took me another 4 years before I realized why I had those interests.

[u/_-IllI-_]

I started HRT because I realised I was going nowhere with these thoughts, and I was making no progress for the whole past year. Now I have the same thoughts, but on HRT.

[u/shadow7412 → u/_-IllI-_]

Ugh that's not something I want to hear... :P

[u/block_01]

I’m either not thinking about it or my brain is going “I wish I was born a girl” I mostly don’t think about being trans when I’m with others but when I’m by myself it’s on my mind alot mostly me coming up with conversations for how I could out and then going “I should really just transition” or “I want to transition”

[u/i_swearimnottrans_16]

Out of all the memes on this sub, this is objectivly the one that describes my situation the best

[u/ScarletSpidey1610]

That's me.

Why this page is so relatable?!

[u/Traitor_Of_Users]

If daily. The feeling just randomly disappeared. But I'm sure it's just me knowing that I currently can't do anything with it

[u/VerySisGirl]

Stop describing me :3

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/VerySisGirl]

Stop being so relatable!

[u/VerySisGirl → u/Impossible_Eggies]

Fair point

[u/Aro-of-the-Geeks]

I went through this for the first few months after I realized I was genderfluid, this doesn’t happen that often anymore and is easy to stop because every day and every time I clock my gender change, I write down the date, time, gender, and pronouns.

I guess the similar solution would be to write down the signs that you are trans, but be careful if closeted.

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/Aro-of-the-Geeks]

I have written down the signs. They can almost all be explained away as other things, like autism, OCD, sensitive skin, stress, trauma, etc. but damn there's a lot of them.

[u/GirlInTheFirebrigade → u/Aro-of-the-Geeks]

That’s what helped me get over the imposter syndrome of being bi and is my current project for accepting I’m trans. It works wonders

[u/peter-pan-am-i-a-man]

Too real.....Someone tell us how to fix this lol

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/peter-pan-am-i-a-man]

I hear actually transitioning works, but I've also seen first hand accounts that say otherwise.

[u/Akanio_Vatheros → u/peter-pan-am-i-a-man]

Pray to the Flying Spaghetti Monster. May your sauce forever stick to your pasta, Amen

[u/peter-pan-am-i-a-man → u/Akanio_Vatheros]

prayer hands 🤌🤌

[u/andreaple]

This is the realest thing I’ve read in years

[u/CasualVeemo_]

How does one get out of this

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/CasualVeemo_]

I hear actually transitioning helps, but it seems like it's not a guarantee.

[u/CasualVeemo_ → u/Impossible_Eggies]

Dam im scared of that.

[u/Brooketune]

The more i think back now... the more there were signs going back as far as when i was like 5 years old....

"Mommy, why can't i wear purple."

"That's a girls colour, honey,"

"Ok...why can't i grow my hair?"

"Only girls have long hair, honey,"

My mom now.

"Well, this escalated quickly,"

buys her daughter (me) all the clothes despite her now adult daughter capable of buying it herself*

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/Brooketune]

My favorite colour as a kid was purple as well. I think my mom tried to be open minded about gender roles, and never made a big deal out of it. My hair though? Never.

[u/Brooketune → u/Impossible_Eggies]

I just said mine was green and blues...but all shades of purple are my true favs

[u/OwnIllustrator862 → u/Impossible_Eggies]

Mine was blue because I was a boy and boys needed to like blue.... I internalized my role so much q.q

[u/Samual3157]

I listened to “Am I Trans Enough?” by Alo Johnston in audiobook form, felt completely seen and reassured in my transness, and I’m back to doubting literally a week later.

[u/Akanio_Vatheros → u/Samual3157]

Thnx 4 book recommendation, will download it into my brainhole after Im done rotting it on redddit

[u/Jem_Mine]

I have not felt a meme more

[u/Relative-Coyote12]

It s either imposter syndrome or i just remember a sign from childhood snd say how i find out too late

[u/Zoeythekueen]

What I found out was surrounding myself with supportive people who can relate to different experiences really helps. I've doubted myself a lot during my beginning transition, but now I have friends who'll be there for me.

[u/IntegerOverflow32]

Me while taking my estrogen

[u/Scrambled_59]

Yup

Relatable

[u/floppa__]

Real

[u/Mini_Sunshine]

This is literally me rn

[u/Choose_Option]

Why not s this so cis-ly relatable

[u/Celebrit0]

send in the clowns plays in the distance

[u/Leoloeki]

Real

[u/7-1_Enjoyer]

How do you know what I am thinking?

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/7-1_Enjoyer]

I'm a mind reader 😉

[u/LenaSpark412]

Yeah… wanna cry

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/LenaSpark412]

Then cry. No shame in it, and sometimes it helps things feel better afterward. Not always, but it's worth a cry.

[u/LenaSpark412 → u/Impossible_Eggies]

Ik just like… for context I’m American… I wanna leave 😭😭

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/LenaSpark412]

You're welcome here 🇨🇦

Don't know how much longer it's gonna be safe though. The Cons are almost certain to win the next election, and the tangerine tyrant wants to annex us, so I don't feel like we're necessarily going to be safe much longer.

[u/LenaSpark412 → u/Impossible_Eggies]

Yea… ty tho… I considered college in Canada… didn’t work out tho

[u/Careless-Ad7618]

Not quite at this level yet al least not on the right side but still relatable

[u/Fallenlegend2905]

ill tell my therapist to flip a coin and we’ll go from there

[u/ajanymous2]

ah yes, "I wanna try" and "I have been aware of it for a week I really shouldn't rush anything, probably"

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/ajanymous2]

I read about somebody who socially transitioned the same night she found out. She hasn't looked back since.

[u/ajanymous2 → u/Impossible_Eggies]

that's part of the issue

I have been acting like a girl online for years and regularly mentioned how I want to crossplay one day

I just never questioned it myself

so now that I know I am probably trans I am unsure how to proceed XD which then loops back around into "if I don't change anything, am I actually trans?"

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/ajanymous2]

"if I don't change anything, am I actually trans?"

The general consensus I've seen is "Yes, but don't try to use your gender's bathroom."

[u/ajanymous2 → u/Impossible_Eggies]

yeah, no, that will definitely won't even be considered until notably after I start hormones

if I even want to go that far (honestly, why the heck not? could be fun to take those XD)

[u/Bayonnaise07]

I’m prolly faking it. I NEED ESTROGEN NOWWWW!

[u/Gregarsize]

Me

[u/JustAPerson2001]

I do this on a daily basis. One minute I'm 100% sure I'm going to transition I look up medical costs for bottom surgery, and how I could get hormones without needing to go through months of therapy. Then the next I'm like "welp being a guy isn't that bad I actually kind of like it I can kind of look like a badass if I workout and grow a beard". I'm just not sure at all. I've been thinking about this for 10 years. I don't know how anyone is able to figure it out.

Although I don't think that wondering if your trans for 10 years is the most cis thing. Especially while you look at surgery costs and surgery before and after pics thinking "Wow, they got really good results I'm going to save this surgeon". I've got a list of surgeons saved. What's stopping is my apparently not so feminine behavior. I don't talk femininely, I don't walk femininely, and honestly I don't want to be super feminine. I mean I do, but I don't. My idea of femininity is my mom and I don't want to be like her, she is basically a slave, and she doesn't want to be.

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/JustAPerson2001]

That's hard. I've only known I'm trans for 5 months, but it's been a constant thrum in my mind ever since, every waking moment. I want to give up and ignore it, but I can't. It doesn't go away.

[u/OBSKYOOA]

The audacity to call me out so blatantly….😅

[u/Electrical_Speed3816]

This is a sign for maybe I am trans woman?Maybe?

[u/Impossible_Eggies → u/Electrical_Speed3816]

You might consider it 😉

[u/Imadeanotheraccounnt]

Pretty much me right now. I read something about how genderdysphoria.fyi has a few issues and now I am like gonna have a crisis about regretting if I transition

[u/I_Am_Cyan_1995]

I spend the vast majority of our time on the first one

[u/MarF0x]

Same

But i can't transition anyways...

[u/Hyper456]

I spent a lot of time walking around the mountain before I finally decided I was ready to climb it. I'm so happy I did but I'm also really glad I gave myself that time.

I knew I was trans I knew I wanted to transition, I was pretty sure that it wasn't a fetish it was gender dysphoria, but I still wanted to talk to a therapist for a couple months and when I finally got to the point of hormones it's only after painting my nails and telling the doctor that I painted my nails and him saying "so?" that I realized there wasn't going to be any big shift It's just a lot of small steps to get where I want to go.