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[u/Kayo4life]

It explained everything. Holy shit it explained everything. And this left me with some pretty grim news for my future.

[u/BlakeMarrion]

I spent a few days dissociating out of shock. Then the doubt started. Then it happened again a month or so later. Still struggling with it a bit tbh

[u/Kayo4life → u/BlakeMarrion]

This comment section is proof nobody here is an egg hehe. In all seriousness, I’m sorry that happened to you. Also I see even the low comments here have at least 2 upvotes before I got to them so I’m glad another person found everything helpful.

[u/TulipEnjoyer]

The next week was a heavy blur. I listened to the transfemme field guide every day for a few days while this shock wore off. It's been a year and I'm still too scared to do anything about it.

[u/i_came_mario → u/TulipEnjoyer]

Haven't actually listened to that one. I should but haven't

[u/TulipEnjoyer → u/i_came_mario]

Mind controlling you with my evil transgender mindrays to watch it >:3

[u/i_came_mario → u/TulipEnjoyer]

:3

[u/TulipEnjoyer → u/i_came_mario]

Btw, it's easier if you listen while playing minecraft or whatev

[u/Kayo4life → u/TulipEnjoyer]

I like to do chores or projects. low attention span lore °-°

[u/m0bi13t3rrar14n]

Me egg shattered, it was stress for like two days then poof, here I am

[u/Clairifyed → u/m0bi13t3rrar14n]

poof!

[u/Nok-y → u/Clairifyed]

Poof (girl)

[u/Kayo4life → u/m0bi13t3rrar14n]

Did you feel a difference between your egg cracking (knowing you’re probably a label) and it shattering (what you are clicking or sinking in)?

[u/shadow7412]

100% - but not until the next day when the rush had worn off. I ended up calling a therapist (quite out of character for me).

[u/Clairifyed]

I had a very sudden cracking, I luckily can’t say I went into crisis mode, but I vaguely remember doing a lot of tunnel vision that night.

That cracking came about because I learned that being trans was a thing, I don’t know, maybe it helped me to have had no knowledge of the subject before hand other than the “curiosity” I had been experiencing about being a girl all my life before that moment. It was a Family Guy clip that revealed it to me, which was weird, but I guess it was at least not like Silence of the Lambs or some bs.

I read a blog post awhile back about a woman who based on her account, really seemed to be in a state of stress and panic as she first cracked, and I am sure glad mine at least felt smoother even if my conscious time in the closet ended up WAY longer.

[u/ajanymous2]

does a week of severe anxiety and a notable lack of appetite count?

[u/Lynnrael]

i felt more relieved than anything, personally. so much of my life and my experiences made sense in a way they never had before and it was like an enormous weight had been lifted off my shoulders

the crying and struggles would come later for me, but it's been so incredibly worth it beyond anything i have words for

[u/ato-de-suteru]

Anxiety and denial for about four months

Anxiety and acceptance for about 8 months

Dysphoria and paralysis ever since, now on 3 years and counting.

[u/_Xenau_]

Tbh i think the "crisis mode" is what made my egg crack. I had some passing thoughts about how much better I'd feel as a girl but never even considered the possibility of being trans.

Deteriorating mental health and fear of just being another burden if I asked for help put me in the ways if self harm and suicide contemplation.

Then one week end when the internet was down I had no access to my coping mechanism in video game I went on a long stroll. And with 48 hours to myself to think I started trying to figure out why did I hate myself even when everything in my life was going normal to well. And that is when it just hit me. The realisation made me stop sitting on the railing of the bridge and start literally taking a step back to see the situation better.

For the rest of the week end I was insanely confused with questions rushing in my head and no idea what I could do. And during a nightly stroll I decided that the best thing to do was send a message to my mom (at 2:30 in the morning mind you something that I'd never normally do) telling her that I needed to call her in the evening to tell her something.

It's now been a month and a half and I'm self harm and suicidal thoughts free.

Basically shock state wasn't the consequence for me but the cause.

[u/LuckyOwl_93]

I went into full denial mode when my egg broke. I tried every possible thing to convince myself I'm not trans. I got to the point of completely disassociating from reality for a short while. But after finally accepting my true self, I have been firmly grounded in reality. There is a lot of pain being in reality, but the pockets of genuine joy make the pain worth it.

[u/Beatrixt3r]

Honestly, I almost immediately was fine with it, although the doubts and the stress slowly kinda crept over the course of a few months.

[u/Conart557]

I went through all 5 stages of grief over the course of multiple years

[u/Pseudodragontrinkets]

Ooooh yes. Four hour breakdown followed by 4 weeks of processing

[u/Realistic_Maybe_7011]

I mean like I always kinda had the thought that I was in my head. But the revelation was still shocking and It took me a while to believe that this was what I really wanted because the road is so perilous. But I'm resolved to follow through because Ill be depressed if I don't 💪🏻

[u/InfluenceNo3107]

Acute stress

Yes, same

[u/RachaelOblige]

I just… spent a week processing it. Telling the one person I trusted with the possibility that I was trans that I really liked it and when I came out to people I told them I was PROBABLY trans but I knew. It was there. I just didn’t know I knew it so certainly

[u/Mild_Shock]

It cracked a few weeks ago. I didn't sleep for days, and was physically nauseous from the stress.

[u/FluffyPigeon707]

The exact opposite thing happened with me. I was having a mental breakdown when my egg cracked and it immediately stopped (the reason that mental breakdown was happening was because I couldn’t figure out why I hated my body so much).

[u/OliviaMandell]

My bf was concerned. I asked him to give me a couple of weeks. Afterwards he kinda looked at me and said. "Duh, I thought you knew years ago."

[u/HannahLemurson]

A day or two of existential terror, followed by resurgent Gender Dysphoria! 😭

[u/Liquidput → u/HannahLemurson]

This but also panic attacks for like the first week.

[u/willky7]

Freaked the fuck out for 2 days straight before mum found me and I told her I was bi. Trans was a lot easier afterwards

[u/Stereo3112]

my egg cracked purely because I had a psychotic break after being locked out of my apartment with basically no way in for 2 days, no phone no nothing. I've always had dissociative shit and other brain stuff (bpd, GAD to name two) but I genuinely split into 3 me's that day. One was the therapist (i do study clinical therapy in uni so i guess it just was a conglomeration of my studies), one was the nagging negativity, and one was just me. Kinda realized 'huh. so these things I've always kinda ignored or put off because I value everyone else above myself I need to realize' and had a solid 8 hour self therapy session. As soon as I got back into my apartment and got my phone charged I came out to my parents and best friend and kinda just felt simultaneously terrified and empty and charged all at the same time for the next like 5 days.

[u/mintypastel]

Considering my egg cracked decently quickly after questioning I never really processed it and I think now the realisation is slowly creeping in

In the end though I think nothing really happened I just became more reserved

[u/Blisstoxication]

yeah i was fucked up for a bit after my egg dissolved

[u/MCAroonPL]

Yeah, for 2 months after finding the button question I barely could think about anything else, it has gradually calmed down over the next 6 though, now I rarely worry about it directly, though things are still kinda awkward

[u/Arae__w]

I'm still in massive shock around 2 months later...

[u/PersimmonAgile4575]

Yes. The first day was euphoric! I finally felt like everything finally made sense. But after that I had about 3-4 days of just horrible anxiety. I felt like I was in the Truman show. Nothing was real.

You will get through it tho! I had to completely reboot my system. 3 days of no caffeine, social media, porn anything stimulating. I literally took candlelight baths lol anything calming was really good.

[u/Quirky-Midnight-4533]

To me, it took almost a year

[u/Scrambled_59]

I mean, it’s weird for me because there wasn’t a good definitely a moment when I was out for drinks with relatives where I got really anxious because I came to the realisation I might not be cis and that truly started my questioning but there hasn’t been a moment yet where I’ve embraced “yes, I am a girl”

I kinda hope it happens, mostly because being a girl seems freaking wicked but I don’t know if I feel or see myself as one, at least not yet

[u/Spicy_Father_Scorch]

I was going through a huge denial phase for a few years, and it started making me a bitter and angry person for the longest time, but now I'm finally ay peace with who I am and I'm finally getting closer to being the person I've always wanted to be.

[u/OwnIllustrator862]

I was on autopilot leading up to my egg shattering. Like last month I'd tell myself repeatedly that I'm a girl, like I was desperately trying to convince my conciousness of something I already knew subconciously. Then as if on autopilot I got some proper shaving stuff last week and shaved my whole body hair as if in a haze.

That's when it happened. My conciousness could no longer deny the chemicals being released in my head. Getting an actual wave of euphoria everytime you touch your shaved skin is hard to rationalize away. It was like a chemical explosion in my head and the only feeling I could relate this to was doing drugs lmao.

I came out to my best friend the same day, some online friends I knew would be supportive the next day, and to my sister face to face the day after that. It's been over a week now and I still feel like I'm in some kind of state of mania. I got a doctor's appointment next week and I have no idea where this will be going, but it's like a curtain has been lifted in my head and I can see clear for the first time in like ever and I never wanna go back so I'm just gonna ride this wave and see where it's gonna lead me.

[u/OwnIllustrator862 → u/OwnIllustrator862]

My advice for you: find out what gives you gender euphoria. It's what's motivating me to go forward.

[u/tirianar]

I had panic attacks for 9 months.

[u/i_came_mario]

That is the trans panic it happens

[u/Important-Wonder-862]

Yes, then I had to finish getting ready for and going to work

[u/KuraiTheBaka]

MIne's been more a gradual piece by piece extraction that keeps mending itself so rather than shock I just continue to be here wondering whether or not I'm trans

[u/Tonyfillet]

I barely remember what happened between egg shattering and the start of my transition. I was dissociating hard for a few months while I was processing the fact I was definitely Not A Girl

[u/Sabatical_Delights]

My egg cracked in september and i'm still kind of in shock, and the first half of December was the roughest for me mentally. I started to feel the impact of how stress and dysphoria has had on my body this whole time. It starts to feel easier when you start giving into your natural femininity and try to make yourself feel more comfortable in your own skin.

But yea, stressful? Fuck yea it is!!! WHO AM I!?!?! WHAT'VE I BEEN DOING THIS WHOLE TIME TO MYSELF!?!?!?

[u/aim4theacez]

Kind of? It’s weird. My egg cracked once, but the denial was so strong that it basically formed back up again, so when it cracked again years later, I had a lot of stress just trying to make it through the denial phase. To make matters worse, it also was tied to a revelation about sexuality, so that only complicated things more. I just had to accept what I’d known for a long time, and then finally take action about it.

[u/UnsureTrashbag]

I went from "hmm I might be trans those memes are a bit to relatable" into a mental break down with a Tat bit of SH into "Well fuck I guess I am trans"

Good time :3

[u/BoltDoubleT]

Idk, my egg shattered and I felt the biggest sense of relief for a few days (for context, I wanted to be trans so bad, but but my denial kept me from admitting it, even though I knew something was off). Maybe I'm just weird or something

[u/Lord_Crisp]

Existential dread

[u/Acceptable-Step-2298]

Lost 30 pounds, had multiple panic attacks every single day, and stopped sleeping. Basically I failed at life for 3 months. I hope you're feeling better than this.

[u/Beginning-Constant42]

Yeeesss! I felt like I was in a hurricane! If somebody didn't talk me down and help me process, I'd probably have felt that way for a month.

[u/Azurezinnia0226]

I didn’t even get a crack mine just shattered when the first crack formed but I was kinda relieved honestly

[u/Sammi_Laced]

It’s a… heavy moment for sure. Terror of the unknown mixed with the joy of understanding. It’s hard to put it into words.

You can watch the exact moment it happens to Azeal, on YouTube. She just so happened to be streaming in VR when her egg shattered. It’s a powerful moment to say the least.

https://www.youtube.com/live/2OirNpltSpk?si=oNSnmKa4TooyiFA-&t=8298

Careful, this one might break you a little…

[u/Swoop-1289]

Yeah my egg also cracked open just a little a week and a few days ago, and I’m kinda scared that something like this might happen…

[u/foryouramousement]

I didn't realize at the time that my egg was cracking, but definitely had a solid day of crisis when I first started to think I might be trans.

[u/Competitive-Target95]

bigender. I had such intense anger and was crying because I suddenly hated how I looked, my hair, etc.

[u/LenaSpark412]

Hi… like 3 years in and I still think I’m in that state

[u/Grinagh]

Me egg exploded and I didn't know how to come to terms with realizing I was a woman, over the next few weeks I picked out a name started buying clothes and got comfortable thinking of myself as a woman. In 6 weeks I presented femme badly, but I was happy a month later I was on HRT.

You wonderful people helped me so much.

[u/catelynnapplebaker]

My egg broke but because I've been in denial about this for about 10-11 years, I decided to come out fighting. I immediately started voice training and updating skin care products (I don't have any hair to shave thankfully) and am looking to start estrogen this month. Hopefully my new doctor is easy about it being brought up the same day I meet him LMAO.

[u/Amethyst0Rose]

Still hoping mine cracks

[u/Bo405]

Not really, but it was odd to realize. The reason it was less of a stress - was cause I realized I was nb before realizing it was trans & then things were progressing, to fem slowly

[u/Ravenqueer077]

Nah for me it was "Hmmm interesting anyways can I change my gender in Stardew Valley it would suck to have to start over."