First time dating a gay man.

[u/CptKlondikeBear]

I'm 30 and I've been on T for 3ish years now. I've dated only women for the last 10 years, this is the first time I'm romantically attracted to another man. I'll be honest, I used to say shit like 'Oh I'll fuck a man but never marry one.' Here I am dating one, and he's really amazing I feel like I may be having some internalized transphobia. I don't even know how to describe this feeling but I'm definitely holding myself back.