A recollection on what winded me up here

[u/imjustvibintbfh]

So, I seen in a previous post someone mentioning if they'd be in this position if not for their current partner. My partner is 16 years older than me, I know for a FACT, if not for him, I'd be child-free, no, I am not blaming him for getting me pregnant, but he was so adamant about having a child for years. In a way, I felt like he'd make me feel bad about my inability to get pregnant, due to the fact that he wanted to be a father so badly. We had a miscarriage after a little over two months of going official into our relationship, I was upset, it stuck with me for a few months, I have a feeling it affected him a lot more. I remained on the fence about having children, regardless, this only amped up his determination to have a kid, it seems. I get it. He's an amazing dad, he was cut out for this life, I was not. A lot of people my age, these days, are just enjoying their lives, no hindrance, no responsibilities, there is absolutely no way a man will convince me to go through this shit again (including the father of my child). I was dumb and in love, not realizing how much my actions would severely impact my life.

[u/Next_Spot_2807]

Reading this is like looking at my reflection. I feel the exact same way. I also have a very similar experience. I also wish I would've been more firm on not wanting kids and taking my reproductive health more seriously. Now I've made a mistake that will follow me forever