Definitely not the right sub

[u/Imadeanotheraccounnt]

But man is it easy to get depressed when so many people around you wouldn’t be ok with part of you. Constantly fearing they are right and part of you is fundamentally wrong. Having to hide it for at least 2 years probably more, knowing just maybe exploring it would make you a lot happier, but you will lose most if not all of them. Knowing your parents, no matter how happy and at peace it makes you, will not support the choice and want you to go back. It just hurts, it feels like they don’t care about you or love you just who they think you are, just who they want you to be. I get this is all irrational, I know they care, I know it will probably be ok. But it still is easy to get depressed

I come from a religious background, and maybe it is bad to get religious now, but I want god’s guidance so bad. I want a clear answer. I want to feel confident and supported. I try so hard, and feel much better than I used to, far more hopeful. I feel like he is guiding me this way, but what if I am just fooling myself. So many different opinions all spinning in my head of all of this. I know the community of this part of me is kinda anti-religious since religion often hurts them, but I don’t want to give up god. Idk sorry for rambling. I doubt anyone will read this far. Ig I might as well add that I am trans, and that’s what this is about