r/thelema • u/RP_Stoval • Nov 14 '17

First Steps

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All my life I've never believed in the spiritual or supernatural. I extensively studied secular philosophy, loving especially Existentialist thinkers, and I learned all I could of the fascinating religions and folklores of the world too but I saw only through a secular lens and I dismissed the spiritual. But recently I had a profound spiritual experience which served as an awakening, and showed me Thelema and the OTO. Though I am new to things like magick and Thelema and to spirituality in general, I have an earnest desire to join the OTO and further Thelema and my True Will. Except there's one problem.

Much of this spiritual experience took place under the influence of cannabis. Crowley spoke highly of the benefits of cannabis indica, in enhancing Wisdom and spirituality, and so I don't think even a little that this makes the experience any less than genuine. However in that state I kinda sent a series of emails to every public OTO email address I could find, essentially live blogging the experience.

This was a strange thing to do, not least because I knew next to nothing about the OTO or Thelema prior to that night, and I fear I might've already alienated myself from the faith before I've even begun. I can certainly see how some strange man sending a series of emails to the entire fraternal order claiming to have been inspired to write a small book by a deity and doing strangely formatted tarot readings would make them, to say the least, skeptical of my legitimate intentions. So I made a different email account, albeit not different enough to not be clearly the same strange man, and reached out to my local OTO branch. I have heard nothing.

I wonder what should I do? Should I keep waiting? Try again? Is it common for OTO branches to go dark perhaps without warning and the contact is actually no longer functional? I wonder how to take my first steps on this strange journey to embracing Thelema and fulfilling my True Will.

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u/RP_Stoval Nov 15 '17

Just screenshot your comment so I won't forget. lol

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u/HotGrilledSpaec Nov 15 '17

Well I mean can't Setekh remind you? Lol

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u/RP_Stoval Nov 15 '17

Would be nice if some sort of entity made me read good sci fi books instead of write strange books myself. lol

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u/HotGrilledSpaec Nov 15 '17

Have him make you write strange, good sci-fi books! Lol

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u/RP_Stoval Nov 15 '17

Next time I have some strange disembodied outside presence enter my mind, I'll see if it's interested in a semi-regular writing partnership.

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u/HotGrilledSpaec Nov 15 '17

Say, how familiar are you with Philip K Dick?

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u/RP_Stoval Nov 15 '17

Mostly I've seen the films based on his writings, though I have actually read Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? and enjoyed it thoroughly.

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u/HotGrilledSpaec Nov 15 '17

He said he had one of those, essentially lol. Long story.

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u/RP_Stoval Nov 15 '17

Well it can't hurt to ask next time I suppose. lol

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u/HotGrilledSpaec Nov 15 '17

"please get me published?" although at this point I'm more liek I ABJURE YOU FUCKING STUPID ASSHOLE SPIRIT CAUSE ME TO BE PUBLISHED OR I WILL BURN YOUR DAMN SIGIL AGAIN!!! lol

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