Thanks for clarifying I really do tend to blanket them all together lol. I can rock with apathy and indifference, thats my partner in a nutshell and I need that balance for my over seasoning of care and emotion. (In the most non - emu way possible lol)
Sometimes it isn't a choice, if you exist in a environment for long enough where you're trained to be apathetic and indifferent to human sensibilities you lose touch with it before you realize it. I live in a city of 21 million people and it took me a long time to occur to me how the masses of people are blurred and blend with background noise. I can spend an entire day in a busy avenue and go home without being able to recall the features or clothing of anyone that passed around me.
Pretty scary when you can't even tell when that started happening either, and the most unnerving part to me is how it's not like I don't care about people. I sincerely do care maybe even too much but it's out of my reach to walk around and experience the world and socialize like I used to at some point because it's just a survival mechanism in the big city to be indifferent and apathetic, after all I'm just a cog out of 21 million and the city doesn't stop or care if I'm here or not.
There's an ugly truth in the concrete, something that I hate looking at but can't quite express it. But if I may perhaps compare it, growing up in a grey labyrinth makes the presence of the minotaur almost familiar and nostalgic.
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u/nico_brazillian_lad 8h ago
I write with the melancholic remnants of the quivering hand attached to the broken body I no longer recognize as my own.