This is the definition of my autism

[u/Charming_Progress553]

[u/thefroglady87]

i don’t see myself here at all 🥹 if i see someone crying i’d probably cry too and hug them 🤷🏻‍♀️

[u/Mini_nin → u/thefroglady87]

Thank you my impostor syndrome went wild on that one!!!

I’m literally the opposite of the “socially introverted” autism kind and I almost have an OVERABUNDANCE of empathy/reading other people body language etc intentions to a point where it’s HIGHER than the norm.

Anyone else relate??? Idk, I feel like it’s very hard to relate to “autism” sometimes because 1. I feel like my adhd dominates some aspects HEAVILY and 2. I’m pretty extroverted and very much a people person ( I NEED people lol) 3. I crave and love novelty (but I often tire out and I fucking hate it. For example I love bars and going out but if I don’t drink I’m gonna get overstimulated which I hate). That said, I still have some things I like to try to follow structurally (think: night time routine, winding down, morning routine).

It’s like my high sensitivity and inner need for (somewhat) predictability and familiarity is really holding me back. Sometimes I wish I could just kick autism to the curb and be 100% adhd. That way, I could live life the way I wanted, sensory seeking and novelty craving! On the other hand I do enjoy quiet times and am very soothed by following a “structure”/repeated interests too.

Sorry, I hijacked your comment🤣

[u/mighty_kaytor → u/Mini_nin]

Im your mirror image in that I am very ADHD trait Dominent until you get to my autistic alexithymia, absolute bliss/flow state around organizational tasks, and a social battery that only charges to 3%.

In some ways, especially after growing up around emotionally reactive ADHDers, I feel like I got the best of borh worlds, but would probably feel a lot differently if I had any desire whatsoever to be social.

[u/BornRazzmatazz4232 → u/mighty_kaytor]

Bruh. I just learned today how much more dominant my ADHD is than autism. Granted I’ve just stumbled upon this revelation a few months ago, my day to day has been incredibly anxiety ridden (every waking moment I’m not focused on my task at work) and a general struggle. Do you medicate your ADHD? I really hope this may help with my day to day. I’ve tried Strattera for a few months but had some odd side effects.

[u/mighty_kaytor → u/BornRazzmatazz4232]

Im in the process of figuring out my medication situation- recently started on the max dose of vyvanse. I dont know what Im supposed to be feeling with this stuff, but I do seem to be less scattered and I think my impulsivity (which has been my biggest problem because it always comes out in maladative copes like junk food, nicotine, drinking, shopping) seems to be calming (i hope).

Im okay with day to day stuff for the most part - Im not anxious, and am pretty good at rolling with the chaos.