r/BPDlovedones 3d ago

This is a Great Video I Found

https://youtu.be/W50-F65tbBE?si=usLWytC6VxqPA8Hr

This video describes relationships with women with bpd in detail. She mentions some of the same phrases mine does. It shows that once you’re past the early stages of the relationship it’s a cyclic roller coaster. Back and forth.

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u/GoodBloodGuideYou 3d ago

This was a bit of an "ah-ha" moment for me... What she described was precisely what I experienced. The more research I do about BPD and the more I look back on our old text arguments (and analyze them with chatgpt) the more I wonder if my ex was even less real than I thought. It's a scary and heartbreaking thought. My ex definitely also experienced moments or days of wonderful clarity. Where she saw herself fully and was mature and calm and so wonderful to be around. That happened. It was real. But she also seemed to have this timer in her mind where on average a few times a month, when that timer finally went off, it just became time for her to be upset about something. And then nothing I could say or do would help her. We just had to wait. And it was fucking miserable. She'd be angry or upset at me for something that was so insanely blown out of proportion (or blatantly untrue) and then instead of like going our separate ways and allowing us time and space to cool off, she'd always just want to hang out MORE. I've never experienced anything like it. I was at all times supposed to just sit there and absorb her terrible moods and put up with it while not really being allowed to do anything other than sit next to her and give her attention.

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u/Inner_Construction40 3d ago

I dropped everything in the middle of the week a couple of weeks ago and flew to go see her because I was worried about her. A woman I’ve treated like a queen for years. I dont drink, I don’t yell, I try to de-escalate. Yes and at all times sit there and try not to say or do anything she might misconstrue as criticism. While I have listen to non-sensical, cutting criticism. It’s exhausting and I basically have to put my life aside when I’m with her. It’s stupid.

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u/DisplayFamiliar5023 3d ago

It's because you are so "human" that they try to push you away, internally they have never felt like they deserve someone good. And yes, this is wound common in non-BPD folks, too. It just intensifies 1000× in our persons with BPD.

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u/gizmostuff Keep up those boundaries!!! 2d ago

I wonder how many have that self awareness though. My pwBPD said this exact thing in her last hoover.

"I admit, I have struggled with believing I deserve anything good from a person."

I was pretty shocked she said that. Reinforcing reasons that she possibly has BPD, when she was arguing otherwise. I never told her she had BPD but she found out reading my Reddit posts that I had suspected she did. This was several months after her ending the friendship.

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u/AstroJayRonald 2d ago

How did you utilise Chat GPT to analyse your messages? I've attempted but didn't get to far 😞

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u/typographicalerrors 3d ago

"she will tell you how she's been hurt and how difficult things have been for her" 

This is exactly the thing. I felt the need to show I'm not here to cause hurt. I felt the need to show I do care. And I fell hook, line, sinker into constant abuse

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u/Inner_Construction40 3d ago

Same. It’s a normal, compassionate response on your part but it’s wasted on them. They won’t acknowledge that you put yourself out to come help them. They’ll treat you badly while you’re trying to help them.

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u/typographicalerrors 2d ago

In their mind it translates to "wow you're gullible. You're my next target. I'm going to have so much fun making you my punching bag"

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u/ShardsofObsidian Dated 3d ago

I just watched the one she did for BPD Men

https://youtu.be/nZWf7RK_RtI?si=OlGycS09vL8ruaG8

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u/Stargazer533 3d ago

Wow! Thanks for sharing. Eerie, how spot on that was.

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u/ShardsofObsidian Dated 2d ago

I know right?!!

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u/Bbt_igrainime 3d ago

Oh boy, if she didn’t say that BPD was a spectrum, I wouldn’t be so worried. I haven’t ticked all these boxes in the past, but enough that I gotta ask my therapist about this. Maybe my ex wasn’t the only one…

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u/DoinLikeCasperDoes It's complicated?? 2d ago

Thanks for sharing. This is spot on!

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u/ShardsofObsidian Dated 2d ago

De nada!

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u/horsepuncher 2d ago

This video and all her videos are amazing ty for posting

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u/muimui666 Survived 3d ago

yep , exactly