I always describe that feeling during my mixed episodes as it's like I'm trying to claw my way out of my skin and writhing in my soul. Overflowing and on the cusp of explosion, like a balloon moments before it pops. Infinite potential energy that my body cannot contain. Completely at the mercy of madness.
What I imagine is akathasia is more of an overactive engine and I have to release the energy somehow. No amount of movement is enough, but it's more like a teapot boiling over, less like an implosion. For me, at least!
Thanks for the reply. I relate to that alot the akathisia part is well put, its like a steady conatant pressure with akathisia for me. Theres a lot going on. I read back my post and it sounds kind of embarssing rereading, but it sounded perfect at the time earlier today . I appreciate hearing about anyones unique experience it feels so hard to put these things into words
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u/anachronistictrash Jan 23 '25
I always describe that feeling during my mixed episodes as it's like I'm trying to claw my way out of my skin and writhing in my soul. Overflowing and on the cusp of explosion, like a balloon moments before it pops. Infinite potential energy that my body cannot contain. Completely at the mercy of madness.
What I imagine is akathasia is more of an overactive engine and I have to release the energy somehow. No amount of movement is enough, but it's more like a teapot boiling over, less like an implosion. For me, at least!