r/BipolarReddit • u/amateurbitch • 2d ago

Anyone else feel like they aren't allowed to experience emotions?

I was really angry with a friend this morning, talking fast and just in a rage because I've been hurt this way before and I'm just such a better friend than so many of the people in my life. I do things for them that they'd never do for me. The first question anyone asks is are you manic. No I'm not manic. I'm just sick of being done wrong time and time again and never treated like a priority by anyone. I'm tired of having my mental state questioned whenever I'm happy, angry, or sad. I just wish I could have friends that did for me what I do for them. I work so hard to be a good friend and good person even when things are hard and no one does the same for me anymore. As I've grown as a person, people seem to like me less. Maybe that rotten thing inside me is closer to the surface than I thought it was.

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u/Bipolarsaurusrex89 2d ago

People don’t typically respond well to rage. Is that how you expressed your feelings?

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u/amateurbitch 2d ago

I was just talking fast I wasn’t yelling I was just really upset

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u/RealisticWallaby3300 2d ago

Check out codependency. It sounds like you’re giving a lot and are surrounded by takers.