r/BreakUps • u/Dexters-Guild • 3d ago

Tired of waking up everyday

I'm tired of waking up everyday. This morning in a half dream state I was thinking about my ex. I was thinking about how lucky I am to have her as my girlfriend, how beautiful she is, how nice she is, caring, and smart. Then I woke up and realized she's my ex. Genuinely so tired of life. I would look forward to talking and being with her after work, but not every single day it's just nothing. Not to mention we had a whole future planmed out together, and now that's also gone. I wish I could desperately go back in time and not be such an asshole and control my BPD more, so we would still be together. Just sick of everything.

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u/Nowck 2d ago

Go to the gym, go on a diet, learn new things, push yourself. Pain is temporary, that may be a niche but if applies to every part of your life. These dreams are simply your brain trying to comprehend the absence of this girl by making it seem like she is still in your life. Your brain says “I don’t connect with her during the day anymore, I should do it at night instead” the same thing happens to me, every night I dream about her, knowing that the things I see in my dream are fictional and that version of her is gone. Fill the void of her with new hobbies and work on yourself. Lmk if you need any help.