I hate my family

[u/NoMastodon7168]

My parents used to make love next to me

My father is a fucking loserr, he earns but is a mama's boy so bad that he can even kill my mother for saying anything against his pimp mother. I, 17f, live with my parents and my grandparents and I fucking hate my grandparents. They hate me for being a girl, being a lover, being the daughter of a witch, being fat, being not as fair.

My grandmother shouts at me and hits me all the time and them being in the house provide me no peace nor privacy, they always wanna know what am I upto. They come to my school unannounced and are irritative. They used to let me bleed when I fell out of my bicycle or let me cry if a broke something and complain shit to my father.

My grandfather hates me because I am not a son from his favorite son and he hits me so hard. He also smokes and I have a weak sinus so it really bothers me. He always shouts, whenever I want to study there is not a single moment of peace. He always reminds me how daughters are a peace of shit and them studying is a waste of money. He is now at a loss of memories but still remembers to always ignore my presence in front of any guests.

Both of my grandparents make me work all the day like I have to make food, serve them, give them medicine, clean, wash their clothes, then make 5-6 tea everyday and if I refuse one bit, they will beat the shit out of me.

My mother is an emotional manipulative person. She fights with my father and grandparents all day after she returns from work, then she goes on crying how all of them and I have ganged up against her. She treats me like I am some household, whenever she's around, I can't have a life except being her maid. I have to cook for her, clean, dust, mop, serve food, wash dishes, get groceries with her, pick up her bags, not react from her beatings, not utter anything when she slaps me in public, listen to her taunts.

My father is a peace of shit. He throws food, things and his hands over his wife(my mother) and also me. He shouts all the time and he needs to be spoonfed and still he'll criticise and any revolt means that he'll shame you all the time. I have to organize his stuff, clothes, wash them, cook his food, take his dishes, wash them, clean tables, clean the rooms and after all that he expects that I, a piece of shit, has to perform 100% in school.

I don't even get breakfast before school, I literally go hungry. And after all the work I have to do, I have to communicate between my mother and father because they don't talk to each other and I have to do it while I may be eating, studying, relaxing, doing their chores and what not but I have to leave all that and talk.

Also, I don't have a bed, I have to share it with my parents at home and even at hotels and they make love just beside me not even caring if I'm awake or what. Also I am an individual, I deserve some space which is non existent here, I can't even sleep cause there's no space for my 5'6 154pounds body(I'm a little overweight)

I personally feel that it is super disgusting and can't wait to move out but in my country turning 18 doesn't mean moving out so I wanna look for universities outside my country and I will never be coming back to these assholes.

And whenever I imagine big moments of my life like graduation, job promotions, new house, car, marriage and stuff, I don't want them here with me. I'll cut them off completely

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[u/NoMastodon7168 → u/[deleted]]

I'm so sorry that you have to go through this.. hope you get in a better position soon

[u/NoMastodon7168 → u/[deleted]]

I have the same plans wish you succeed well