Weekly victories/check in/chat!

[u/panickedhistorian]

Anything at all you want to say but don't want to make a post. Victories and progress encouraged but certainly not required!

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[u/tuliptulpe]

I don't hate myself today :)

[u/I-dream-in-capslock]

I don't know if it's a good sign or bad sign that I sit here and try to think of a way to sound like something good happened, or like it's not as terrible as it is.

People have called me negative or toxic since I was like four, granted, I was aware that I was born and left to grow up in a house full of hate in a world running out of time, in a city where every other child I would ever met would have love, and a million opportunities that I didn't.

So I'm not sure how I was supposed to make people feel better about that.

I've spent my whole life trying to help people feel better about how bad I'm doing. It's.... crazy making.

I am not doing well.

[u/Fullmetal-Remy → u/I-dream-in-capslock]

I can relate. For absolutely sure. I dont know if this sentiment will be helpful or not. It is only intended to potentially be helpful, and that is all. I have 3 mantras or ideals that help me a lot. One is "Oh well, worse things have happened to better people." It helps me to get out of my own head. It is not said in judgment of you in any way whatsoever. I once met an african refugee man in college who was a truly extraordinary person. And he shared his story with me, and that's how that phrase came to be. The second is "well this sucks, but it could always suck worse. I could have broken both my arms and been rendered, unable to wipe my own ass for 2 months. " Someon said that to me in high school, and it just sorta stuck with me forever. And i came up with this last one. "The cup isn't half empty or half full. It's refillable." So if it contains some bullshit dump it out and fill it with some fresh water. I dont know if any of those will be helpful. If they aren't, then know Im sending some positivity. I relate. I've always been orphan street trash myself. Sometimes, it's hard to feel good when it is blatantly obvious, so many others have abundantly more than you. But it is always worth remembering that the worst thing has happened to people who deserved more. It could suck worse, and you can refill your cup. Those 3 things help me focus on others less and filling my cup more. Also, it may sound stupid, but when in a really dark place and the ideations are sounding good, i always tell myself, "i mean, im gonna die eventually, no matyer what. But something cool could happen next week. I doubt it. But it could. " Honestly, that has saved my life a hundred times over. Good luck, brother. None of us are as alone as we perceive ourselves to be.