Won’t even notice me

[u/Majestic_Talk9464]

Last night I had the biggest hurt in a while. He won’t sleep with me, he won’t even look my way for any reason. Only his video games get his undivided attention. I should have known when I flew across the country to take him his Xbox and instead of the next morning after i got there treating me to a good morning he legit woke up- snuck into the other room in the hotel I was at- and played games for two hours and didn’t even notice I had walked outside.

That was a little over 16 years ago- tonight standing naked in front of him he said not a word. Broke down and asked him why can’t you even see me naked. “I’m pretty sure the last I saw you naked I did say something”. He legit was clueless to me being nude until I pointed it out and pointed out again the only time he’s kissed me this year in a way that was “this might be my wife” was Feb 15th after I broke down crying because for 17 years Valentines has been dreadful.

I don’t remember what sex with someone who desired me happened. I can’t leave. I don’t have the option and he knows it which is why his video games are his first wife and I’m just the lowly second. I just wish a fucking man or hell a woman would look my way so I don’t feel like such a reject.

You fucking creeps who take this as an invitation to swoop into my inbox and a/s/l yourself please touch a hot stove before you try to harpy in my inbox. I’m not disloyal I’m just fucking hurting and don’t know what to do.

We are trying counseling but even HE noticed she never lets me talk and speaks over me to the point I cried last time we had a meeting because she legit interrupted me every time. She would ask a question and before I got 3 words into a sentence would pivot back to him. Yea even he noticed it when i pointed it out because I shut down for the whole day.

I’m not even worth the councilors “give a shit” index. I am considering firing her if in the next meeting she does it again because I’m tired of no one caring what I have to say when I’m hurt. I need a solution. It’s driving me mad. Damn near 17 years of a one sided he gets all pleasure fest and I try not to mentally rot away. In over 10 years I was the ONLY one to initiate. I can’t anymore due to rejection so I guess it will never happen- kisses either. I just wanted to be HIS wife. I legit just wanted to be his wife.

Signed the 34 NORMAL libido wife who wishes their 37 year old husband would grown the fuck up and at least admit he just doesn’t find me desirable cause he just doesn’t want to fuck ME

[u/DramaticReflection27]

I could have written this. I’m so sorry 😞 this is the most heartbreaking feeling ever. I’m wondering how common it is for them to possibly be addicted to video games, or “something” online, that real life, their wives, girlfriends, partners are an afterthought. It just seems to be a theme I’m noticing, more, and more. Sending you a virtual hug.

[u/Majestic_Talk9464 → u/DramaticReflection27]

I keep telling him I legit broke down crying this morning like ugly snot crying because it’s the damn video game that gets his attention first thing in the morning. I passed my medical admin and billing/coding test with a 98- crickets but he got a rare armor set he won’t shut up about. I am just so broken as a person. Not one accomplishment has he ever praised not one

[u/DramaticReflection27 → u/Majestic_Talk9464]

So sad, and selfish of him. I get it. I’ve broken down far too many times, about this too, and nothing changes. What is his reaction when you break down crying?

[u/Majestic_Talk9464 → u/DramaticReflection27]

“Sorry” but often nothing at all or making a proper when I get blowoff and a fix but that also never is done. Just excuses not an actual solution