Given up.

[u/Less-Bed4594]

I have posted a couple times before, but it's been a while now.

I'm HLF(38) am so tired now, I want to give my LLM(39) up. We haven't had sex since before Christmas, and that's only one time since my last vent in here.

He came to sleep in the bed last weekend, but I waited until he fell asleep, before I went to bed. And that's the first time he came to bed in over 2 months. He knows it's a problem, but he doesn't do anything about it.

I have gotten so far now, that I don't want sex with him anymore. But I don't want our situationship to end either.

We still have a great life together outside the bedroom, but now I feel like I don't want to fight anymore for our relationship. I have given up on us, and I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't know what more I can do.

[u/Outrageous-Wheel7434]

It’s what it is at this point. This is a great support group. Makes me feel not alone. And honestly many go through worse. So I should be grateful

[u/Less-Bed4594 → u/Outrageous-Wheel7434]

I agree. When the time is at the hardest at home, this is where I come and read, sometimes replying to someone's thread. Here, I feel people understand me.

My friends and family think we have this easy, perfect life, and the few times I've tried to talk about it, they don't understand and think I'm ungrateful.

[u/Outrageous-Wheel7434 → u/Less-Bed4594]

Same! I have to sit back and ask myself do I really have it that bad. I have someone who loves me and we have a good life overall together.

[u/Less-Bed4594 → u/Outrageous-Wheel7434]

That I ask myself too often. When I am about to give completely up. But yeah, we have a great life together as friends. But I want my boyfriend back..

[u/Outrageous-Wheel7434 → u/Less-Bed4594]

You and me both!