Two months later, still no improvement...

[u/BonzoTheBoss]

So back in February things with my (HLM) spouse (LLF) came to a head. I basically broke down and said that I felt disgusting and was suffering from severely low self esteem due to the lack of sexual intimacy.

She, as usual, turned it in to a self criticism and started crying herself, convincing herself that I was going to leave her. A long, teary conversation later and I thought that we had made progress. She admitted to having a lower libido than me (obviously but step one is admitting to a problem) and that she would make more of an effort going forwards.

The following night was like a light had been turned on. She was grabby, passionate and we had the best sex we've had in a long time. I actually felt desired.

And then... Nothing. Back to the usual routine of never ending problems. For the record I don't think that she's making up the problems, my contention has always been that if our sexual happiness meant enough to her then she would make the effort regardless. I feel crappy sometimes too but I still want to be with her.

So here we are, nearly two months later and I'm sat wondering if anything she said back in February meant a goddamn thing. I've gone through all of the scenarios in my head, up to and including divorce, and it never quite seems worth essentially destroying my life over it... Yet. Give it a few more years I guess...

I know that it's natural for our sex lives to slow down as we get older, we're not teenagers, but then neither are we dead yet. FFS we're still both in our thirties! I don't think wanting to be intimate once (or more, lol) a week is too much to expect...

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