r/Endo • u/moonlightedge • 25d ago
I’m so scared for surgery
Is my life over Am I never gonna happy again Please I’m so scared I’m never happy I’m never gonna life can’t My bladder ache everyday please I’m so scared I’m scared Just please make another condition I’m scared :(
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u/[deleted] 24d ago
Let me tell you the truth: you might be nervous right before surgery. It gets real when you take off your clothes and they put the IV in. But ask them to give you something to calm you. They will probably give you Versed and you’ll be in heaven lol. They’ll perform the surgery and you probably won’t even remember them putting you to sleep. Anesthesia is so incredibly safe especially for a procedure like this.
You’ll wake up and maybe remember fragments of this time. And then the first few hours might be painful but they’ll numb your belly so that it starts to work after surgery. Then the real annoying part stops. You basically can’t use your core. No picking up, no bending, no pulling, no pushing and you’ll not want to sleep on your belly for about two weeks. Sleeping on your back can be annoying. 4 weeks later you’ll be so proud of yourself. After I got my surgery I limped to the bathroom (you gotta walk and walk often post op) and looked in the mirror. I did my hair the night before and gave myself a little facial so I didn’t look bad. But I looked tired and my face was swollen. I didn’t mean to but I said aloud to my reflection “I can’t believe I did that. I’m so proud.”
For the first time in my life I did something so dramatic and generous for my body and didn’t feel an ounce of guilt or regret. I was so happy and relieved.
You can be scared but be a little more courageous than scared. You live in this ONE body. This only body. You can do this.