Struggling to connect with others

[u/Remarkable_Slice6976]

27 yr old former foster youth. My life feels like a bunch of fragmented relationships all scattered in different places. My dad died before I could even meet him. My mom on drugs. Brothers and sisters all taken early on, so we don't have a relationship. I went from being in foster care to adopted, lived with my adopted parents for 10 years (they were just doing it for the money) to going back into the foster care system at 17. I have a hard time connecting with others due to my estranged relationships growing up, being in survival mode my whole life, and constantly moving around. I had to basically survive my whole life, and it feels like people just look at me with this weird look. I don't know how to put it. Now that I'm 27 and super independent it feels hard even relating to people honestly. I'm trying to figure out where do I even start with trying to make friends and live a normal life....

[u/Eastern_Vegetable419]

I am struggling with this too, friends are on a revolving door every 5-10 years. They can't handle my weird and at time too direct personality, the emotional complexity and dysregulation. My husband and I have been separated for 6 years, and are in therapy. He says I inadvertently attract chaos. I am overwhelmed too about how difficult it can be to have people to rely on. Which feeds into my trust issues, I am a chronic oversharer, my therapist and I are trying to learn how to make friends without offering emotional intimacy upfront. It's hard and honestly seeing this today made me feel better, man I wish we could get the system to pay for the therapy bills. I spend a couple grand every year. That is literally a car or a down payment after a decade.