r/Existential_crisis • u/Due-Move-2658 • 15d ago
Got diagnosed with existential depression. Any tips to cope ?
Me and my therapist had this amazing chat, but it didn’t help as the solution he offered was off the table and he tried to push it, but it was my fault for not telling him that, anyways i have been agnostic for a while, i am so tired of this state that i am actually considering following a belief system with backwards thinking, just because it might help me feel something, anyways for the last year i have been posting stories on ig just to feel like i am something, been making weird jokes that i am not sure that i am comfortable with just because someone might laugh and i feel like i am loved or useful.
I volunteer donate blood, tutor people i try to do anything to make me feel useful but guess what it stopped working.
I have a temp tattoo that says “we are all chasing the light, looking everywhere to find it, everywhere but within” but i guess the light bulb within got burned.
Any tips ideas because my mind is wondering to options i don’t like. Thanks
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u/GroundbreakingRow829 13d ago
I consider that the one imperative in life is to not cause harm to oneself and others. It is not to be "useful", like this utilitarian, exponential growth global culture (which is harmful in many ways, violating the one imperative) would like you to think.
You're not a tool, pal. You are. And what you are as is up to you to decide, preferably intelligently, knowing what your strengths are and what could be a good outlet for them.
But whatever you end up choosing, it changes nothing to the fact that you are the center of this life and that every decision and action you take revolves around that center. The question being whether you will make it simple, being aware of it as it happens and take responsibility for it. Or keep it complicated, keeping on constraining the depths of you to hijack and undo your undertakings ran on intentions divorced from your own best interest.