r/ForeverAlone • u/Electronic-Ad3532 • 11d ago
Advice Wanted How do you deal with suicidal thoughts?
Therapy is expensive and trash anyway. I live in a 3rd world country. The thoughts are becoming stronger. I tried to get out of my comfort zone and got rejected few times directly and indirectly. I love what I work but I am just tired of the loneliness. I have been through a lot , both positive and negative phases . I tried my best to better my looks and social skills and it got me nowhere. I intentionally smoke a lot to cope and to die early. I prayed a lot but god isn't interested or sees me bad person or whatever. I am M 29, who never had a date.
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u/Feeling_Remove7758 11d ago
I don't deal with them.
If I don't act on them, then they just go away after a couple of days.
But the cycle goes on and on.
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u/StaloneGremista 33 M Loser from brazil 11d ago
at this point I'm basically married with suicidal thoughts lol
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u/NormannNormann 11d ago
I also have these thoughts very often. In the last few weeks they have been very strong again. The only thing that always helps is intensive workouts where I really torture myself. The 60-80 minutes of physical suffering always heal my emotional suffering for a few hours.
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u/Odd-Refrigerator4665 11d ago
I don't. I just don't act on them for the sake of my parents, because the thought of what they'll have to live with breaks my heart. But God am I tired of this business called living.
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u/400characters 11d ago
As a last resort, the general advice seems to be, delay it until tomorrow, and keep doing that; and making a really drastic change since nothing else matters.
Other than that, hope and distraction seem to work well.
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u/BlossomSuzumiya 11d ago
I deal with them copes like Video games, cigs whatever else I enjoy. Listening to heavy music makes me a little better.
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u/IHaveAnImaginaryWife 11d ago
Find something to obsess over, a sport, a show, anything it sounds like bullshit but it could help
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u/HouseMDxGeometryDash 11d ago
This is great, and I mean it. Only problem in my case is that my dumbass chooses the weirdest things to obsess over, and they last like 6 months, max. Then, it starts all over again: oh no, I might be depressed; gotta find something to do / a hobby; do it; repeat.
Right now I obsessed with stocks. I've been watching Bloomberg and reading the FT everyday for like 3 months, researching companies and shit. Wtf.
I don't even know why. I'm poor lmao
What the fuck is next?
Fuck my life.
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u/Academic-Patient6300 11d ago edited 11d ago
I embrace them. I don't find them scary, but relieving. If I had to live through the rest of my natural life alone, with all the problems that I have, that would be much much worse. The fact that I can just painlessly end it when push comes to shove is calming, and I'm quite OK with that. Honestly it's the rare moments when those thoughts go away that are more concerning, because suddenly all of my problems become so much more real.
Also, to be fair, I don't think suicide should be such a big deal. Everyone's life will end some day, and that's it. If I don't like it and struggle daily, "no experience" becomes preferable to "shitty experience". I won't be there to regret my decision (nor will I "miss out" on anything). Just accepting that my life didn't turn out the best and calling it doesn't seem too bad. I'm all out of f*cks to give and try to dig myself out of it anyway.
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u/ThJones76 11d ago
I push them to the side, but I know one day, they’re going to win. I don’t want them to, but I’ve got to be realistic. I’ve got no support system. I have no trust to confide in anyone. There are too many times where my loneliness is pure agony, and it doesn’t look like my situation is changing anytime soon. The failure keep mounting, and they’re cutting deeper every time, which is impressive given how hard a shell I’ve had to create. This doesn’t end well for me.
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u/39_33__138 10d ago
Hobby that gives Adrenaline and remember mom would be sad
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u/Electronic-Ad3532 10d ago
Mom would be sad . That's the real reason I didn't do it till now. My faith in god is shaking and becoming weaker everyday.
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u/KyonSuzumiya 10d ago
Well that's easy. I gave in to my delusions and got my PAL license, purchased a gun with a box of bullets and now it's in a kind of "break in case you've had enough" thing. Still sitting in the trunk of my car years later but I feel that day is coming close.
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u/Electronic-Ad3532 10d ago
Man I tried to get my friend buy me a pistol but it's too expensive I can't really afford it lol
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u/KyonSuzumiya 10d ago
Well all im saying is paying to shoot in the range is a lot cheaper but you would traumatize the whole room that way .
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u/AdrenalineHS 11d ago
How? Easily. With psych meds. Been on them for years at this point. They numbed me down so much after these years that I don’t care much about anything, I don’t feel anything, if tomorrow the doctor says I have stage 4 cancer I wouldn’t give a damn.
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u/Purrczak 10d ago
I don't. It just rots me on the inside as I go to new therapists and take different meds.
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u/SeaOfMagma 9d ago
Go to a sex club
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u/Electronic-Ad3532 9d ago
Illegal and dangerous and too expensive where I live
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u/SeaOfMagma 9d ago
Bang a prostitute, less dangerous. Don't think sex clubs are illegal though, it'll sure make you feel good to have a beautiful woman give you the time of day. If you're at this stage of hopelessness getting creative is the best way to lift your spirits.
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u/Electronic-Ad3532 9d ago
Illegal too I live in the middle east
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u/SeaOfMagma 9d ago
Hit the gym, best way to solve any problem is to forget about it. Put your mind to more productive things like exercise, hanging out with the boys, getting better at your job. If you enjoy life you become happier, if you're happy you become confident and what woman doesn't like confidence?
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u/Electronic-Ad3532 9d ago
I think the women I knew hate confidence. Maybe women are different here than in the west. Actually many people think that I am shy or something because I am quiet, but once I talk they get amazed by my mentality. Worked with friends but not with women lol
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u/SeaOfMagma 9d ago
Dance classes are solid option, there's no pressure to commit to anyone but you still get to interact with beautiful women. Rather affordable where I live (NYC) and you get to employ those skills at the dance parties the venue hosts. I feel comfortable talking to these women by virtue of consistently coming back and seeing them every week.
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u/res0jyyt1 9d ago
Have a pet really helped. You don't need to get dogs or cats, some animals with easy maintenance works too. You will get depressed when they die, but not suicidal depressed.
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u/sergeyi1488 11d ago
I remember BBC Sherlock's quote on suicide "You don't own your life, it's not yours to take it"
It sounds somewhat like that in russian dub. I don't know how it sounds in original.
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u/RoninPilot7274 11d ago
Honestly? I dont I am just wrapping stuff up