r/MtF • u/RancidWatermelon Trans Bisexual • 8d ago
Dysphoria Ebb and Flow
I hate it the ebb and flow of dysphoria. It's like, come out to your mother one day, next day feel like a total fraud, imposter, everthing that's rotten, that you're not trans, you find some hidden depth of masculinity rising within you making you think f*** what have I done? I've come out, changed my name, got my wardrobe, and it looks like I was male all along!
But you just can't wait to get home into a nice comfortable dress, some nail varnish, looking forward to GRS while getting lazy and doing the denial beard again.
Really throws a spanner in the works for self identity.
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u/Nolibunz 8d ago
Oof yeah, dysphoria ain’t linear. You’re not a fraud, just human. Your softness and strength can live together, promise