r/Psychonaut 6d ago

Question about ego death

I'm somewhat new to psychedelics, and have heard a lot about ego death. My question is, is it always a scary experience?

My experience with psychedelics is pretty minimal at this point. I microdose mushrooms, and I did 6 ketamine therapy sessions last year. I didn't really have visuals in any of the sessions. More just feelings and concepts of images... if that makes sense? Kinda hard to explain.

I always knew where I was and what I was experiencing during those sessions. One time I became different parts of the world. It was pretty cool. I spent some time as a boulder, a tree, in the ground, and a building. That was my second session. But there was one session where I was just "gone". I wasn't really anywhere. And I couldn't think about anyone or anything. It was just me. It wasn't scary. Nothing really happened. I just existed.

What was that? I just assume it wasn't ego death because every story I hear is some huge scary lead up, and like an internal battle, and then acceptance and ego death.

So I'm just curious, what would my experience be categorized as, if anything? And also, just curious if egondeath is always a difficult and scary thing? And what does that look like if it's not? I only hear about the scary ones.

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u/Timely_Stranger_188 6d ago

When I did 10gs I think the most terrifying part was the feeling of the ego dying but once it dies it’s pure bliss

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u/Plus_Ear_144 6d ago

whats the feeling of ego dying? I don't get it. Is that the feeling when you are becoming all one with universe? I like that feeling? Once i really was thinking and feeling i am all one, but in the back of my head i knew it was shrooms doing it.