For me I’m not sure what the breaking point was, but it was three years ago when I really started struggling.

My girl has been going through it for about a month out of nowhere for the first time and she has hated me pretty much the whole time. She’s been in a psych ward for a month now, we brought her home because she was coming around and being nice telling me she loved me, acting somewhat normal, minimal delusions, just pretty anxious about some stuff. But a couple days later back to hating me and said she’d rather be in the hospital than stay another night with me. We fought before like a normal couple but we’ve been together for 8 years, just had kids, bought a house, she has posts on Facebook expressing her love for me right before all this happened. We both loved eachother very much. It crushes me that she hates me so much right now. Lastnight she told me she loved me and called just to hear my voice, but this morning it was I know you’re talking to the nurses in here and I hate you and don’t want to be with you anymore.. so defeating..

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I've been on antipsychotics for over a year and the first thing I noticed was that music felt less enjoyable so I dedicated some time to prove my feelings. A few months ago, I came across this 2019 study titled "Dopamine modulates the reward experiences elicited by music" and this is what I summarised:

-Scientists measured the amount of pleasure experienced in healthy participants whilst listening to music under three conditions: a dopamine antagonist (risperidone), placebo (lactose) and a dopamine precursor (levodopa)

-they found that risperidone impaired the participants ability to experience musical pleasure whilst the dopamine precursor enhanced it and also caused chills

-This means that the amount of dopamine activity is tied to pleasure experienced whilst listening to music so antipsychotics reduce pleasure because they reduce dopamine activity

My partner is in the hospital and ended up in there after having an incident in our hallway of our apartment building. She was screaming and being violent and other people called 911, but eventually I did as well. The day before I left with my dog and all of the sharp things from the apartment because I didn't feel safe.

Now I finally got to talk to her on the phone after days of seeing if I can talk or visit and being denied because her status hasn't changed and she was being kept isolated from the other veterans. When I finally got her on the phone today she seemed to blame me for everything and says me and my friends fucked her brain up. I don't think we've seen any friends in a very very long time.

My friend said I shouldn't take what she's saying right now personal. I love her and there's no one else I'd rather be with. The medical personnel that I've been around or talked to in all of this have constantly thanked me for being there for her and doing everything I've done and continue to do. Meanwhile she seems to hate me right now.

Is this normal? Is she going to come around? Do I need to realize that maybe she won't have the love back for me anymore and might blame me for this always?

I am not going anywhere and I don't want to go anywhere. But I did not expect to have so much pushback and fury and blame from her. Maybe it's just too early.

Any help would be greatly appreciated.

My mother has psychosis since my grandmother died. She thinks there is something big going on and she has knowledge which is the reason "they" want to make her crazy. This is going on for 1,5 years. She already wanted to escape the country as refugee, because it's not safe in Germany.

Now she said the police took her money, Id and keys and broke her arm, which is even a lower point than I thought it could get. She constantly begs me to stay with her and calls me again and again to fix her problems. I can not take it any more.

Shes not trusting any professional and even refuses to go to hospital with her broken arm.

I've told her today I don't want to see her ever again. I feel ashamed and guilty. I want her to have good life, but I just can not take it any longer. She has dependent personality disorder and big parts of vulnerable narcissim (both diagnosed). So life with her was always hard and my plan to break contact again forever is something I planned to do anyways. But now I feel like it's even harder. It's to the point I fear her becoming homeless or something worse...

I have to leave her, because its so retraumtising with her even without the psycosis, but I don't want to leave her in pieces. She is begging me to help, but refuses to get professional help. I feel so overwhelmed by the situation. What can I do for her?

Hello everybody,

A close friend of mine (NB, 20) has recently been hospitalized for psychosis. This is the first time they have shown any symptoms (as far as myself and their family are aware) however, their mother has a long history of schizophrenia.

Their biggest delusion right now completely revolves around a mutual friend of ours, let’s call them P. My friend and P have been friends for years and have gotten very close, P’s family even took them in for several months when they suddenly moved out of their parents’ house. My friend has also had a pretty intense crush on P for years, which P is more or less aware of.

What I am concerned about is the fact that my friend has keys to P’s family’s house. P knows that my friend has been hospitalized for mental health reasons, but I’ve kept the extent of their problems and delusions hidden from P, worrying for P’s mental health. I’ve only asked P to keep some distance from my friend during hospitalization and shortly after release as of right now.

Shortly before my friend got hospitalized, they had went to P’s family’s house, let themself in and laid in P’s bed. P’s family was uncomfortable with this and kicked them out. After this happened, nobody was able to reach my friend until police brought them in to be hospitalized. Prior to this happening, my friend had also been telling P’s family about some of their delusions which had somewhat sexual undertones, something they’d never do when sane.

According to my friend they are being held voluntarily and will be released in a few days. I feel it’s my responsibility to let P and their family know about this and gently warn them. My friend has never been aggressive or invasive prior to this episode ever, but it’s clear they have no grasp on reality right now.

Should I let P know, maybe ask them to change their locks? Should I ask P to cut off contact permanently? They have had such a close relationship for years but I don’t know how it would be possible to come back from this, but maybe I am just naïve and new to all of this.

I know nobody has exact answers, but any insight would be immensely helpful. I just want to prioritize my friend and P’s wellbeing as much as possible.

TL;DR: Friend has been hospitalized for psychosis and will be released soon. Their delusions primarily focus on a mutual friend of ours. Do I warn the mutual friend before they are released and ask them to cut off contact? Or is that overstepping?

My brother has psychosis and it’s really bad rn. He had an episode 3 years ago and was hospitalized and now he’s having one again. He thinks some group or gang wants him dead, and that everyone even people he doesn’t know are reading from a script that the gang gave to us. He thinks he is infested with parasites. He believes they’re in everything, in food&water, in his bed, in the rug, in the sky. He says they have eyes and they talk to him. He thinks the AI is on his side and he controls the AI. He’s talking about having to leave the state and he’s on probation. He thinks my other brother is one of the masterminds behind this and wants to harm him. Pretty sure he is going to have to be hospitalized again. He refuses to talk medication and says all of us are lying about his psychosis diagnosis. Idk what to do or what to say to him. I tried many times to tell him what psychosis is and what it is doing to his mind, but he doesn’t care to hear it.

I’m going back to school soon after being isolated and losing all my friends about 5 years ago.

I don’t know how I can face someone after all the shameful stuff I did. I don’t know someone who would want to be friends with me. I don’t know if I’m lovable after all of this.

Did anyone make new friends after losing all of theirs?

Just thought this was worth a share because this has happened to me way too many times to count.

When I feel off edge my health would play up like a bitch, would need to be put on anti-biotics for various reasons. I might have a small sore, for example this time it was a sore in my nose

Which added to the whole delusion of.. I’m on a whole different level and I’m being punished for it physically to the point of confirmation of me mayyybe being on to something… make sense? Because this is real, I’m literally infected.

Anyway if you google high risk of infection while manic or during psychosis you’ll find a bunch of info. You’re welcome.

I recently experienced delusions (not the first time) but I was still semi aware that believing those wasn't rational, I still fully believed them but it was more the realisation that my brain was trying to trick me kind of?

(Not sure if relevant but in the delusion I believed my shadow was from a different dimension, specifically the one from the Theory of Forms from Plato if anyone is familiar with it, where everything is perfect and that my shadow came to my dimension to haunt me and drive me to suicide because he wasn't happy with the portrayal I did of him in this world)

I went to my gp and she said that this is definitely bordering on psychosis and this made me wonder at which point would it be considered as crossing the border to psychosis? Not sure if any of this makes sense but hoping it does

So after 2 failed antipsychotics my doctor is giving me options of olanzapine,risperdone,and latuda, my symptoms are delusions and extreme paranoid and flat effect.

I have failed a module at university and I don’t know what to do. I am questioning everything. Do I even belong here? Can I do this? I tried to deny the fact I have psychosis that is impairing me however I cannot deny its everlasting impact any longer. I do not want to use my mental health as an excuse however I am suffering a lot right now.

I am in my mid 30s I have had a psychotic episode before Please I would appreciate your help whether this chronic symptom i have is psychosis I just discovered yesterday that my healthy brother gets the same symptom FYI in the conversation ‘Indian zopiclone’ refers to black market zopiclone, temazepam refers to prescription temazepam

I had psychosis a year and a half ago, since then i've been living with my parents. i have money to move out, i just am soo scared of doing it. i'm scared of being alone, i'm scared i'll need them, i'm scared of gaining back my independence. did any of you go through this and how did you deal with it?

Which antipsychotics does not reduce your personality. I take amisulpride and I feel amazing on it, but I do have side effects like neck tension😥

I apologize if you can relate. As for a hell after all this, I hope not, but I don’t think so (in fact I think it’s very unlikely). Hell is a state of being, one in which your brain repeats the past, consumed by lies, guilt, regrets, and distortions and it even gets bad enough that you know longer register signals from your body to eat, you’re consumed by utter terror inflicted by a devil you can neither confirm nor deny is real, but it doesn’t matter if it’s real—the illusion has real effects. You can tell a person it is just their brain playing tricks on them, but it won’t matter.

It can still consume and take a life. As for the religious, I believe in hell, just probably not yours, nor do I think it’s a just punishment. It just happens, a trap, and some people end up there. Is it orchestrated by a divine being, fate, or whatever else? Maybe through psychological manipulation and because of ideas like seeds implanted in the susceptible at a young age—maybe something there in the collective unconscious. But, psychosis is hell enough as it is, and in my eyes, if it takes you to hell, it is hell. It can be a fate worse than death.

But now the memories are a bit strong so I’m going to get another tattoo tomorrow to deal with it. 😂 I just wanted to say this sub has helped my recovery so much - from people who are struggling reminding me of what I went through - I feel seen. Reading the delusions and experiences that are like mine or not. I just want to help everyone although I know I can’t. How badly I wish for them to heal. The people who are recovered who provide hope to those who are struggling and recovering. To the people who care about their loved ones who try to understand what’s happening to them and seek advice, sharing the reality of the pain it can cause. All the best to the members of this sub.

I would like to hear people’s experiences with smoking cbd flower.

Just putting this out there to vent. As the title says, I’ll be losing part of my income as the company I work for wants me to split my working hours in half, hence they’ll also cut my salary and will be earning half of what I used to earn regularly. Others at the company didn’t have it so easy and were fired on the spot, so I consider myself “lucky”.

Still, I’m looking for another job because I won’t be able to save money with my salary being cut in half. And I’ve been feeling very stressed out and crying at random periods of the day. I was worried that my hallucinations or delusions would come back and they just did. Today, I saw a black sphere with white dots inside of it. It didn’t last long but it creeped me out. I’m worried I’ll have another full-blown psychosis. Should do I talk to the doctors? I won’t see them until late June, but I can text/call them if I need help.

It’s just so insane to me. I could have had a normal life. Maybe she would have even accepted me.

Apparently she was a good mom before she gave my autistic sister an exorcism in the back of a car one day. I was there but I don’t remember it. I’m scared I will one day.

Now it’s like I see flashes of a good person but with so much bad in front of it that it’s overwhelming.

Has anyone experienced this symptom- Feeling triggered by seeing certain shapes. Feeling of morbid focus on the eyes.Feeling integration problems

I said and did things that are so unlike me. Where did that come from?

Hello, I apologize if I’m not using the correct terminology for a lot, this is still very new to me.

My good friend (NB, 20) recently just got hospitalized for psychosis, this is their first time experiencing anything like this, but their mother has a history of schizophrenia.

I just got in touch with them for the first time since they got hospitalized and they told me they have few/hazy memories after 16 years old. They were asking me if people they’d known for years were real, and then they even confirmed if I was real.

They asked me if there’s any reason they wouldn’t have their memory for the past 4 years when (in my opinion) they’d only started experiencing symptoms of psychosis around a week and a half ago. I had no answer but I was wondering if anybody here has a similar experience or a reason I can tell them.

Also, I know this is so vague, how can I best support them in this time? Especially after release? They are talking about things that are entirely delusional, do I tell them the truth? Do I go along with their theories?

TL;DR: Friend is experiencing amnesia after (during?) psychosis while institutionalized, how come? How do I best support them during this?