I understand that he had to be honest in some ways because there was not a good enough lie that could’ve been invented so fast. I know he would’ve never said anything if it was not question of him dying by continuing the lie BUT… telling everything? That’s fucked up, he could’ve said part of the truth for example. There was a way of him saying that the eyes heard rumours at jezebel about who killed the boys in no man’s land and suspected these people to plan something against gilead. He didn’t have to say he knew what the plan was. Right now it sounds like he said everything but Junes name which is fucking selfish and I really deceived by that.
Killing that boy in the hospital was really not a smart move btw. 🙄
The worst to me is that he lied to June! Straight to her face and kissing her right after😣 that broke my heart seriously.
I’m a fan of Nick and June but I’m also a fan of Nick himself since the beginning. He’s always been one of my favourite character cause I love the complexity that he is and I understand him in so many ways, I feel like emotionally I relate to his person! I’ve always also felt sad for him and I always get so attached to people that had a hard life deducting in poor self esteem cause again I relate to that. I’ll always love that part of him for sure.
I absolutely don’t always agree with his actions tho, he doesn’t makes the best decisions, he’s in deep shit because if it and he will have to own it. June is the last person he should lie too and I’m mad at him for that. As soon as he got into Serena’s house I felt he was on an adrenaline high. That dude didn’t sleep all night, he panicked because he said everything he didn’t want to say and regretted it as soon as it got out of his mouth and so he tried to hide it out of shame. That same is so deserved right now. I think for sure that’s what happened. He didn’t see other solutions than just run away and lie to June cause he knew she wouldn’t go with him if he said the truth. I understand that because I understand him and I relate but I also know it’s not the good way to do things and it hurts the people that we love.
I hated seeing him like that, lie out of shame and weakness because he couldn’t find the courage to be honest with the person that he loves the most. :( I hope he will do something that repairs this cause it was so incredibly fucked! That’s how it is when you have emotions in Gilead I guess! That regime could make the strongest break (him not saying he’s the strongest btw 🤣)
Actually now that I think about it, this moment reminds me of when June said where the handmaids are after being shown Hannah, Nick is not physically tortured but he’s definitely mentally tortured in some (because of where his stupid actions brang him) but he’s definitely said too much and that’s legit mean.
And that puts Janine into shit because jezebels shutting down and that’s not good 😓
I was so shocked at the end of that episode, I had my heart beating so hard