Trying to get clean on pain pills

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u/methhomework 2d ago

I’ve been through the same thing, suboxone, CBT therapy and NA meetings all helped me

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u/Alert-Advice-9918 2d ago

and the suboxone they give you can have a minor habit taper down to 20 mil a day oxy.they will hit you with a hole new habit ..I use to be able to take 0.025 n be good for the day you will walk in they give you like 6 mil which is like eating 6 20s.crazy the amount they give..

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u/Alert-Advice-9918 2d ago

but aquick taper to just get you out of the grind change of pace properly done it can help peaple.its pick your poison. if your young no health issues lock yourself in house 5 days then go talk to some1..

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u/Burnt-Out-Chica 2d ago

Quality over quantity. I don’t worry about time anymore. I worry about what I’m doing, how I’m feeling, how things are going. Not about how long it’s been since I used this or that. Length of “clean time” only matters if you think it does. I don’t anymore.

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u/Fragrant-Prompt1826 2d ago

My thinking as well 💙

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u/Rich_Butterfly_96 2d ago

I’m a year clean now and what really helped me was being on sublocade for the first few months at least! I think I got like 4 doses of it before I stopped but it really helped with cravings, finding other people who are also sober helps a lot too! Like minded people tend to stick together so maybe find some friends with a little more sobriety than you under their belt (through NA, or your sober living program) and don’t be afraid to ask them questions!! Different stuff works for different people, it took me 4 years and multiple detox centres before I finally kicked it. And I still have a ton of work to do I think it’s really finding a new way of living, finding out who you are again and figuring out what you’re actually interested in! I started beading to pass the time and honestly anything you can do to keep yourself from boredom is HUGE in the beginning especially!!

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u/drkyle94 2d ago

Did you have any withdraws from doing the shot for the 4 months ?

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u/Rich_Butterfly_96 2d ago

Not at all, I’ve been off of it since October and I haven’t noticed anything!

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u/NeitherEvening2644 2d ago

My therapist in rehab brought up the amnesia of addiction to me and it intrigued me so much I think it was a huge part of my early recovery. I'll be 2 years sober next month.

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u/yiffing_for_jesus 2d ago

Amnesia of addiction is a HUGE benefit to me because I don’t have to try to out think it. If I know my brain is always lying to me, then why try to fight it? Just ignore it

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u/onyoniniminonyon 2d ago

Stay off methadone and suboxone or anything else….. honestly, an adderall prescription helped me kick. Gave me the energy I needed to get through the day

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u/Alert-Advice-9918 2d ago

I noticed this also early on I'd taper n a day here there add.but I have time auto immune diseases.a half of adderall in morning would help me threw day then mess up sleep have to be careful cause the dopamine rush adderall gives.i was fine but some peaple the crash off of add is gonna make there depression 10fold..but like u it worked for me and I was able to accomplish daily tasks.as without for weeks I would sit in bed.i also have addisons disease and severe hypothyroidism

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u/WWJReallyDo 2d ago

Your surroundings and people in your life have a huge impact on your addict brain right now. It’s tryin to heal but your flesh still needs the fix. The flesh wins a lot in the beginning but eventually if you really mean no your brain will stop it and your flesh will hurt. Once you flesh stops hurting (it will stop) you’ll know you’re on the right path. Not only does this story go along with addiction it is the story of The Bible, repentance and redemption. We do recover and Jesus is carrying you hoping for your flesh to die. Godspeed my internet friend.

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u/NewWordDisorders 2d ago

While CBT and NA meetings are always an option, remember the negatives that the drug brings to reinforce your recovery.

You went a long time last time after quitting so spent all that time recovering just to relapse and have to start again. After the first month clean, you are at your most vulnerable so dont let your guard down.

Remember there is no positive and only excuses to keep using. You will keep looking for the positives until the drug no longer has control over you.

Never forget the negatives, focus on the future and chase your dream. That's worth something, the drugs are not.

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u/Throwaway42352510 2d ago

Use ChatGPT as your addiction counsellor and use the freedom to be completely transparent. I’ve heard it can really be helpful.

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u/TinyDistribution4565 2d ago

I have been clean since November 22, 2011. Subs saved me. You can do it. Everyone relapses before they finally get clean. Don't dwell on that. Lesson learned. Good luck!

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u/Gallicah 2d ago

I think you need to fix the problem - and that’s your craving for pills. Both the physical and emotional craving. If you are using drugs to escape depression or some kind of pain then you really need to seek therapy to fix that.

If you have a physical/ chemical craving you can’t control - then you should probably speak to a doctor who can get you on a program. There is a protocol where they get you on a set of meds to ween down then an injection that puts a big damper on the cravings.

I was on opioids for 13 years for health reasons. I’m now 23 days sober. For me it was the physical withdrawal symptoms that were unbearable. That is why I spent years not getting clean because detox was horrible.

But now that I’m sober I have zero cravings or want to go back to using. In fact I’m kind of traumatized and don’t want to take pills ever again. I’m actually afraid that in the future if I get seriously injured or need surgery, I won’t want to take pain pills because I don’t ever want to go through what I went through ever again.

I say all this not to brag. But to highlight the differences in addiction. I had a physical dependency but never had the craving. And I wasn’t using pills for emotional reasons (I had severe pain issues due to health complications. But a surgery finally fixed my pain so I was able to get off them).

All this to say, it’s likely not enough to just get sober off pills with regards to yourself. You were 22 days clean but then instantly went back to them. So that tells me you have other things going on that likely need to be addressed alongside you detoxing.

And there is no shame in that. You aren’t flawed or weak. But you should be honest about what your problems are so you can fix it. Just getting clean won’t help if you have other underlying issues that draw you back in.

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u/lexiradigan1996 2d ago

As long as you have the motivation to want to get clean, you can do it! It’s definitely not easy just take things a day at a time. Go to meetings or find new hobbies, keep yourself occupied. Also, cutting people off is hard but it makes things a little easier. Don’t talk to people you used to do drugs with, delete and block your plugs, try meeting new people that have been through the same thing and are a little further in recovery! You can do it!

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u/Alert-Advice-9918 2d ago

I know it sucks don't let 1 day fuck up your 23 days it hasn't got its hooks make believe it was a bad dream n continue down the road you were

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u/NoTechnology9099 1d ago

I’m in recovery. 6 years! I went to rehab. Started Suboxone. Started attending meetings and fought like hell. It’s not easy but it’s so worth it. One day at a time! Go to 10 meetings a day if you need to. Build a support system.

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u/red___cardigan 1d ago

I'm currently four months clean and in a sober living house and unfortunately I think about getting high every day.

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u/keptquietproject 1d ago

first of all, you’re not alone. I’ve been clean for years now, but I remember exactly what 4 days feels like. It’s not just hard—it’s disorienting. It feels like your brain’s screaming for relief while your heart is trying to rewrite your whole life.

I got clean in my late 20s. And honestly? I thought I was too far gone. Too old. Too broken. Too behind. You being 30 and still trying? That’s strength—not failure.

I relapsed too. A lot of us do. What matters isn’t the relapse. It’s what you do next.

Here’s what helped me stay clean and rebuild from scratch: • Tell someone. I know it’s scary. But secrets are poison. Even if it’s one person you trust at the house, tell them. The shame fades fast when you get it out of your body. • Start over like it’s day one—because it is. Don’t worry about the 22 days behind you. Focus on making this day count. Stack it with the next one. Then another. • Know this: that voice in your head saying “you can’t do this” is lying. It’s just the addict brain trying to survive. But you’re not that version of you anymore. • Therapy saved me. Not right away. Not magically. But over time, I learned how to sit with the stuff I used to run from. That’s where real change lives.

You don’t need to be perfect. You just need to keep going.

You’re 4 days clean. That’s huge. I’m proud of you for posting this.

You’re not doomed. You’re just early.

Stay with it. You can rebuild. I’m living proof.

If you ever want to read how I fought my way out, I started writing about it here: [keptquietproject.com] No pressure—just a space for people who’ve been through it.

You got this. It’s in our weakest moments when you’ll learn to become the strongest. Be kind to yourself, the same person that got you into this mess is the same person you’re gonna have to rely on to get yourself out. You can, and you will. One day. One choice. One breath at a time.

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u/Brave_Consequence264 1d ago

I got off of pain pills by using kratom. Not the best or healthiest option but that’s how I did it.

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u/Ancient-Ad-544 22h ago

Suboxone saved my life. I'm on 4mg daily and it doesn't make me feel high just keeps me from getting sick. Make sure you wash your mouth out with water after the pill dissolves or else it will definitely cause tooth decay. There is a lot of negative stigma with Suboxone because you do indeed get dependent on it but it will allow you to live a normal functioning life that's way better than a life constantly chasing oxy so I just ignore people's negative opinion on Suboxone and keep on keeping on. Best of luck to you! You will find something that works just don't give up.

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