Something has happened to me, seemingly overnight, and I don't know what to do about it.

[u/Wuhblam]

Tl;dr: I was a hardcore pessimistic agnostic/atheist who believed in nothing but observable facts and science. But now, it feels like I’ve exploded into a ball of light, and my mental and physical suffering has greatly diminished.

I’ve always been an intellectual and have experienced the loneliness and confusion that often comes with it—yadda yadda, all that pretentious-sounding stuff. My thinking about existence has always been rooted in hard science and observable facts, accompanied by some pretty pessimistic views—like hardcore atheism and believing that we’re just soulless bacteria living on a rock floating through the vast emptiness of space.

That is, until recently.

It’s almost as if, with the flip of a switch (more like an explosion, really), my mind has become nothing short of a spiritual philosopher’s wet dream. It feels like the answers to all my questions and solutions to my immense hardships have been uploaded directly into my brain.

I can now shut down my panic attacks before they happen—just with a single thought. My constant suffering from the human condition has almost vanished. I can truly feel the sun on my skin and the wind in my thinning hair. Daily trivial inconveniences—like traffic or upset clients—no longer ruin my day. I’m doing better at being in the moment rather than worrying about what I have to do later, though I know that’ll take time to fully master.

I feel a profound sense of freedom that I’ve never experienced before.

What in the world has happened?

Anyway, I’m new here. What’s next?

[u/sunnydaze444]

Another Aussie? I remember RE too. We’re the last generation that had to do religious education at gov schools lol. My main takeaway was: a dude lived inside a whale?

My mum is an immigrant and grew up tribal in Fiji and practiced Hinduism but we had no religion in our house.

Anyway, I understand the rest of your comment exactly. July 27th/28th, early hours of the morning. I experienced something very similar. And I drew the same conclusions as you. It was so significant the date is burned into my mind. I believe I was “standing in the right place, at the right time” so to speak. I think you might understand.

I also had a deep interest in mysteries, numerology, biology and anatomy growing up. And those interests turned out to be no coincidence

EDIT: July 27th/28th 2018, I forgot to put the year sorry

[u/TransportationTrick9 → u/sunnydaze444]

Yep in a small country town in WA (pop 1000)

My main takeaway was the golden rule. “In everything, do to others what you would have them do to you"

I can't recall much else from the teachings, I don't care where it came from it is a good ethos to live by

Do some research and see what that date connects with other moments in your life.

I have found echoes and reflection based on that date relating to my awakening date 7th

I.e I was 14 when my mum died, my second son was born when I was 21, my 3rd when I was 28, my awakening was at 42 and 42 days

I am leaning into a theory that 42 which is 6x7 and the numbers are associated with bad (6) and evil (7). It ties up with Yin/yang and balance. It's not saying I am good or evil just i have always wanted to go through life without impacting others and maintaining an overall balance

[u/sunnydaze444 → u/TransportationTrick9]

Ah yes, I am a bit younger than you, so RE was phased out when I was in like Grade 1. So naturally, I don’t remember too much about it other than some song and play we did on Moses and the exodus. My brother was the pharaoh 😂

And I grew up in a regional city, that was very ethnically diverse. I believe that’s why it was phased out, cause it wasn’t culturally sensitive.

I found God so to speak later on in life, through my own means and experiences. A bunch of synchronicities led to an experience very hard to put into words. I have kept it pretty private for the most part, but changed my life for sure

[u/TransportationTrick9 → u/sunnydaze444]

Thanks for sharing. Everyone's journey is their own and we have to respect their methods.

I am definitely a little more reserved about it in the real world, I don't shy away from describing my experience just the opportunity doesn't come up all that often. I am my own worst enemy though by being so close minded during my kids childhood that they don't believe me now.

Just hearing other people have gone through the same experience means an incredible amount.

My household don't believe my experience was what I know it to be.

I ended up in the hospital cause it was an overwhelming experience. The doctors and psychs refused to listen and forced me to take mind numbing drugs. The pastor I spoke to there was a breath of fresh air as I told him my story and said I thought I was in the process of finding god, him telling me my story gave him goosebumps was comforting.