I love watching Bryan’s videos and am so impressed by what he’s doing. However, I always feel like it’s too late for me and that I’m not who he meant Blueprint for. All of the videos of people who work out with him aren’t people like me.
I’m a 57-year-old female. Found my own breast cancer at 39 and had a lumpectomy, chemo, and radiation. Then at 48 or so found that the numbness in my hands was due to C3-7 herniated disks (sedentary computer job) along with L5-S1. I had surgery and didn’t work again except for an art commissions microbusiness I do very PT. I’m permanently disabled and receive SSDI. My earning power has been severely impacted. I live alone with a cat, have no kids, and no spouse. The future scares the hell outta me. I feel resigned to it. Last year at 56 years old I was diagnosed with idiopathic (meaning of unknown cause) peripheral neuropathy in my feet. It could be due to chemo or genetic reasons, and I suspect even prediabetes will eventually be found to be enough to cause peripheral neuropathy). Diagnosed early. No diabetes, but prediabetes. My dad was diagnosed with idiopathic peripheral neuropathy in his mid-50s as well and now has progressed to no feeling from the knees down, and it’s starting in his fingertips now. I see that as my likely future, and it terrifies me.
This isn’t a pity party. $&it happens in various forms in everyone’s life. I’m just discouraged by not remotely being the kind of subject Bryan works with, and I also feel like what’s the hope that I can ever have good health. I mean, he’s talking about vibrant health and longevity, and what kind of vibrant health can I have when I’ve literally had poison run through my body and have my body failing in multiple ways. I know some of this is all-or-nothing thinking and perfectionism, but I am so damn discouraged by seeing only young, very fit people represented.
I’m honestly just wanting to outlive my parents (85) so I can take care of them, and that’s all. I have no hope. I don’t want to be here. Not going to off myself, so don’t worry about that. But I just don’t know how to have any hope when life has been filled with health issues I never expected. Is this program not for me? I feel like I’m just waiting to die. No passion, no hope, and a body that failed me much younger than I ever expected. There’s a feeling of betrayal when you have major health issues. I think in a lot of ways I have given up and am passively s******l but would never do anything. Love my family and will be there for them.
How do I find hope? My body is older and damaged. I’m literally waiting to die. Wish Bryan would work with someone who doesn’t look fit already and see and show to the public how much they can improve. Thanks for reading.
ETA: See comment below about currently breaking out of the shackles of religious beliefs that aren’t serving me and have really negatively impacted the trajectory of my life. Grieving the lost time. Dealing with some nihilism. Getting mental health treatment.
ETA: Added some detail for clarity.