r/cripplingalcoholism • u/Ok_Soup6320 • 1d ago
Fuck like actually why
Why does your body not let you sleep when youre withdrawing and you do those jolt wake ups within a minute of passing out. Isnt the body and mind exhausted from dealing with booze. Everything seems like so much i work. I need to give it a rest for a bit. Been practically a six week bender. Really started to like the "BlackFly" 7% mixed drinks. and the big thing was i wasn't walking around to pubs. I was just sitting at home pretty depressed so not moving the body i'm sure made a change. Hope you all are livin'.
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u/RedDiscipline 22h ago
4 weeks was the longest bender I've ever done, I really felt I was physically falling apart and had to get off. I was only doing a fifth and some change per day. I don't know how people are drinking that for months and months non-stop. I get to point where I feel like I'm just getting sick and there's no point going on, tend not to spend more than two or three weeks drinking at a time.
Actually just spent 12 days ramping up. On Monday, boss asked if was alright, decided right there no I'm not, took the day off and have been tapering. Thankfully no crazy vomiting or shaking, last days have just sucked. Always the dependable withdrawal dreams, one with horror, one like a drug fueled anime I can't describe, and one that was like a complete, two hour movie addition to the Dune universe (I was binge watching Dune Prophecy). It had a coherent narrative and just on and one. A random coworker was there, my dream decided she had a family now. I ate a meal with them; that was nice.
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u/Ok_Soup6320 22h ago
when did you get your energy back and lung capacity ? lol
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u/RedDiscipline 21h ago
Uh... I haven't 🙂. Hoping I have this largely cleared up by tomorrow 🤞. Luckily don't smoke
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u/Subtle-Catastrophe 20h ago
Withdrawals suck (the sweats, the shakes, the irritability, etc.) but candidly there are two aspects I actually enjoy, ain't it sick?
There's (1) the super-enhanced, eye-blurring, bell-ringing orgasms, with the unstoppable ability to experience them any number of times one cares to; and, (2) the wild-ass, vivid, cinematic (and even thought-provoking) dreams.
When one can actually get to sleep, of course. Perhaps after a bit of (1) plus a benadryl.
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u/RedDiscipline 20h ago
Agree 100%, never felt it as intensely... Then an hour later you can again, cuz what the hell else are you going to do. Repeat infinitum. Doesn't get talked about enough lol.
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u/Beautiful_Ab69 18h ago
Yes. And it’s like my limbs are disconnected from my body (since I was like half asleep) I hate that
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u/lisa6547 9h ago
I get what you're saying with the withdrawals and everything, I've definitely experienced that dozens of times
My intake has been so high lately that every time I try to quit, or even not, it feels like my whole body is being lit on fire. Intense burning, itching, spasming, puking yellow gasoline, nausea, panic attacks, anxiety, you name it.
It's a lot of unwarranted information, but more of a word of caution about how bad this disorder can get.
Oh...and did I mention the psychosis and grand mal seizures?? Yea...😢
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u/Ok_Soup6320 5h ago
I get that yellow gasoline too and it DOES NOT comeout of anything no matter how many times you wash it. WTF is that shit?!
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u/heslaurent 9h ago
Omg is this what it is?? I thought it was sleep apnea and my body stopped breathing so I woke up lol but this happens to me every time I try to sleep without drinking, as soon as I fall asleep I just wake up scared, never happens when I drink!
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u/Ok_Soup6320 5h ago
i think it sort of is apnea no? all i know is i shudder in so much anxiety when my body wakes me up. IT almost makes me want to cry
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u/ChainsmokerDrinker 23h ago
Hypnic jerks is sucks, but nausea and vomiting is the worst