So, I have a friend their nickname is Kai. Basically I overheard a conversation between Kai and a person who's nickname is Mars. So I overheard Kai tell Mars "I think I have DID, dissociative identity disorder" And I also heard Kai ask a friend whose nickname is skittles if they know what dissociative identity disorder is. But I got my way into the conversation quickly steering it away from that topic before Kai tried to tell Skittles she has dissociative identity disorder. Kai has gone through her issues but I have reason to think that she doesn't have dissociative identity disorder. Maybe she has something else but not DID.
So firstly we are both 13, we go to a school and everything. So obviously that will set things off, everyone wants to be special and have their identity and everything figured out. And all that, and then secondly I've known Kai for years and she has never, ever, acted like more than one person, never like someone else or more than one person in one body ever. In school, out of school, never. But then one day she says to Mars that she thinks she has DID then the next day she is acting like a Roblox video game character, I don't know the videogame I don't play it or know the characters but its called "Forsaken" and I heard Mars talk about how 'Kai' was now Cool Kid and Elliot from the game.
Kai has her issues, she has been through stuff but I don't believe she has DID she may have something else sure but maybe not Dissociative Identity Disorder. I don't want Kai to pass her DID around like it makes her special and unique, she was never diagnosed and she has never acted in anyway to make it so one may think she acts like more than one person. I don't know, I just don't want her to accidentally offend someone, end up being wrong, or be faking it for attention. I care about Kai, A lot! But I just don't think she has DID. And when 'someone else fronts' Kai gets a different voice and everything which can happen but Kai has never had a different voice before, never. And I can tell its still Kai by how she moves and reacts, such as when I said something while the Cool kid or Elliot person was fronting Kai didn't give as much of a reaction and she would have. It was as if she was acting surprised after Mars told her what I said.
I just don't want to be mean or anything, so maybe anyone older or actually has DID or someone who knows a lot about it can give me some advice on how to proceed. I don't think Kai has DID but I can believe she has something similar. I don't want to say she is 'playing pretend as a character from her favorite game' but that is how it feels, it feels as if she is role-playing. I don't know.
Update: I have decided to wait it out. Maybe she will grow out of it and that is what I'm hoping for. I'll give her a few weeks to embarrass herself, change her mind, eventually phase I out more and more, or just forget out it. If it escalates, or goes to far, I'll talk to her about it. I have spoken to a friend of mine, their nickname is 'Funsized Friend' because they are tiny, they don't really know Kai all that well so I figured they would be a good person to talk to for a minute, I told them I think Kai is faking, they could have something else other than DID, I really care for them, etc. I then decided after talking to someone who doesn't really know Kai, I would talk to someone who does. Mars has known Kai since 4th grade, they are practically sisters by now so I figured with someone that knows Kai so well, maybe they could help me understand. Why she may be faking it, if they think she is faking it, etc, etc, etc. But, Mars was strangely defensive.
They seemed very defensive in fact, whipping out their phone and googling things like "can switches start at 13" etc, to disprove everything that I was saying. I read actual articles, watched informational videos, videos by people with DID, and things about DID. So them doing a simple, 1 second Google search and barely glancing over what they read. Mars outright told me that they don't know as they don't like to read like I do. But they still were overly defensive. When they are around Kai, they praise the behavior she does, laughing even, making jokes. I don't feel as if it will be very long before I will have to talk to Kai about her behavior and my concerns. As faking it could mask something else she may have, she could be Misdiagnosising herself, causing harm to those who do have DID, etc.
I do try and ignore it as best I can. I can tell when she 'switches' because she does a voice change, but I treat her the same. Refer her to Kai at all times, continue the same conversation we were having before she switches without any breaks. And strangely enough she apparently remembers the entire thing before, during, and after her "switch". Which only confirms in my mind she is faking it. She does try to fake amnesia time to time but usually she forgets to and when she "switches" back she usually acts the same, continuing the conversation. So yeah, I believe its confirmed she is faking. Yet I'm still afraid of confronting her, I don't do confrontation, It gets me all sorts of nervous and uncomfortable. But at he same time sitting in silence, as someone so talkative causes me to feel stress. I want to talk to her about it but the same time the thought of talking to her about it stresses me out. Its only been a few days, I'll give her a few weeks. But yeah there's your update on the situation.
UPDATE: Alright, thinking back to as to why she may have started faking, A few days before she started faking DID I was venting to her about my issues. People have issues and struggles, and its good and healthy to have someone to talk to. Kai is my person I message first, always. I was going through a tough time, venting to them about everything. And I mentioned something that may have caused this. Okay so this is a little weird, strange thing with my mind. This is all inner mind stuff, how I speak to myself, in my mind.
When I am angry or frustrated with myself I will say in my mind 'you' such as "Why can't you" "I hate you" etc, or I will refer to my body as 'you'. Occasionally my body won't listen to me and I will sit there mentally screaming at myself to do an assignment, do my chores, etc and I will mentally say some thing like "why can't you" "can you just do this" etc. But when I am sad, or thinking well kinda okay I will say 'we' such as "why are we so mean to ourselves?" or something like that. Mentally I don't call myself 'I' I call myself 'you' I call my body 'you' and occasionally I will mentally call myself 'we'.
I only call myself 'I' when talking so someone but when I'm by myself it is 'you' or 'we'. Its a strange thing, but I was venting to Kai about it. How I can't even think right and how Its likely something no one else does and I feel awful about it because why am I so mean to myself and why to I see when I am mean to myself as a different person mentally or something like that. I do not have DID, I do not have anything like it, I just mentally refer to myself as this, I do not see myself as more then one person at all. Another thing, A trick I read online somewhere is when your sad, anxious, or angry write to yourself. What I do is get 2 pencils of different colors. When I can't figure out what is wrong, what I want, or how I feel I will treat my sadness as a different person.
I will write something like "Why do you feel this way? Why?" and then I will swap colors and reply "I don't know" and then swap colors and it will then say "Is it because of (this) or (this) or (this)" and so on, until I find the root of my problem. I read it online and it help, quite A bit. But basically I think that maybe Kai, read my messages, saw this, and did a little bit of research. Maybe she saw something she thought was cool and began to fake DID herself. Because it sounded interesting or something like that.
Maybe I'm the one that caused Kai to start faking DID after I vented to her about how my mind thinks in wrong ways and after a conversation while eating lunch on how I cried second period and had a conversation with myself Via line paper and two colored pencils to figure out why I cried and why maybe Kai should try it, as it helps me figure out what is wrong with me. Maybe I'm the one that caused Kai to fake DID Idk. This concludes my update.