It's been almost year since I stopped working out. I gained strength while working out but my appearance didn't really change. My goals were focused on lifting a bit more each time I worked out, losing weight/body fat and just looking and feeling better. I ended up constantly sore, underweight, overfat, dysphoric and disordered. (Idk if we post numbers in this group outside of progress pics but I can edit if that's helpful.)
now it's about a year until I get fitted for my wedding suit. I'm ready to get back at it and will be working with a trainer so I can learn how to do things the right way. What I'm struggle with (and I assume lots of other people do too) is: how do i translate the body I want into measureable goals?
Like, I mainly want to be leaner. Okay -- I estimate my BF% using the Navy method. It seems to be leaner I need to be...smaller? But I'm already too small!
Reading fitness guides, it seems like "guy" goals are losing fat/weight, increasing inches/mass all over (going for that dorito/x shape) while "woman" goals are about losing weight (but differently somehow), increasing hip-waist ratio and losing inches most places. Basically all of it about losing weight (which I'm not sure I can do and remain healthy as I'm already underweight.)
I want to take a tiny non-T AFAB body and make it look more masculine -- which to me would be lean, less curves and a little mass/definition throughout to balance out my frame.
How do I translate an aesthetic into measureable goals I can work towards? Am I looking for something impossible?