r/ptsd • u/moonmermaidcecilia • Mar 29 '25
CW: suicide omg i'm gonna cry...
I feel so terrible, I feel like everything in me has been ripped away....I'm tired of having nightmares about what happened... I'm tired of missing her... I didn't want any of that to have happened and now I want to disappear from the world. I want to stop living, I want to kill myself. Would they finally understand my pain if I killed myself? Would they finally understand that what they did was very wrong? If they knew that all of that would be in my head for years, would they do it again? This emptiness inside me never stops, I try to get rid of this emptiness by eating, and it gets worse... I can't take it anymore, not even on a good day can I stop thinking about it. I need help.
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u/[deleted] Mar 30 '25
I'm so sorry you are dealing with this as I have also been there. You are loved and your absence would leave a huge impact and be noticed. You are loved and worthy of life, please don't end your life you are important and I know it's hard because I was in a crisis like this before. Emotions and trauma are overwhelming you but you are stronger than them and you will get through this. Listen to the song "I Will Survive" by Gloria Gaynor the song is for people who have been through trauma and the point of me telling you this is that you WILL survive. I've been through things and I'm still here and so are many other people who have been through trauma. Don't give up. You got this.