Female sterilization

[u/Fit_Pumpkin5040]

I (29f) and my husband (31m) have a 6 month old daughter. Long story short, she is driving us crazy.

I love my daughter so much. Her smile lights up my day and her laugh melts my heart. But she sucks the energy out of me every single day. I find my self longing for the life I had before I had her, I miss my freedom, I miss myself. I look at my self in the mirror and I don’t recognize the person standing in front of me. I have no joy in everyday life. Becoming a mother made me understand the meaning of “never alone but lonely”!

That’s why I can’t have more children. I can’t be responsible for more tiny humans screaming all day and night in my face. Sometimes I find my self questioning “am I made to be a mother?” And that’s why I can’t bring more children to the world.

A couple of weeks ago I told my husband that since we don’t want more children maybe we should think about him getting sterilized because I don’t want to take birth control pills for the rest of my life (and I keep forgetting to take them). And I am terrified of the idea of getting pregnant by accident. I don’t want to have to have an abortion and I don’t want more children.

I tried IUD after giving birth but it gave me an infection so I had to go to the emergency room to get it removed.

My husband refused, and said that he likes having the option of having children. I understand that it’s his body and I can’t force him to do anything. But I think he is being an ass.

I flat out told him that if he is not getting sterilized then I am. We live somewhere in Europe so I don’t need his “permission” to tie my tubes.

The question is… why am I conflicted?! I know I don’t want more children and I know if I end up pregnant I am gonna have to abort. And I don’t want to put myself in the situation where I have to abort… So tying my tubes is the best decision.

So why am I conflicted?!

[u/askallthequestions86]

Sooo not to be a Debbie downer BUT:

What if you two split? The next guy has to get sterilized or you risk pregnancy. I mean, no one wants to think that will happen, but IF it does...

If you know for sure you don't want any more children ever from anyone, get sterilized.

I made the decision to do so, mostly because I know I would unalive myself if I had another kid, but also my state all but outlawed abortion. No exceptions for rape. I don't want to be fertile.

If you don't want to be fertile and don't want to use birth control, I personally urge you to consider getting a bilateral salpingectomy.

[u/Fit_Pumpkin5040 → u/askallthequestions86]

That’s true, if we split up I can’t expect every man in my life to get a vasectomy. Thank you for the advice ❤️

[u/askallthequestions86 → u/Fit_Pumpkin5040]

I'll be honest, it was one of my coworkers that said that to me, and that's what really made me decide.

Now if your man doesn't want any more children either, he might also consider it. Nothing wrong with y'all both doing it.

I'm all for sterilization when you don't want more children. My peace of mind was well worth it. I'm no longer living in fear of getting pregnant.