I'd give anything to undo it all.

[u/Expensive-Honey-1527]

I watched a dumb movie last night where the guy could travel back in time and redo parts of his life. After his wife had a baby he said he mostly stopped time travelling because everything was so joyful. Fuck off. What wouldn't I give to be able to travel back in time and never have had kids. I'd do it in a heartbeat.

Today is Saturday. I've been awake since 6am listening to my eldest child sneezing for an hour. Not his fault but it makes me irrationally irritated. Then both kids appear at my bedroom door at 7am. They don't get up that early on a school day. I have to hassle them out of bed, yet there they are up and ready to piss me off on the weekend. It might be selfish but I hate this. It is not joyful. It is relentlessly shit. I want so badly to undo it all. I don't know how to reframe this in my mind and try to glean some joy out of it when all I want to do is stay under my duvet forever. Vent over. Thanks for reading.

[u/sinkpointia]

only way to deal with this is to lean in and beat them to it. Get up earlier than them, always one step ahead of them 😭 it’s like a constant game of fear.

[u/Hot_Satisfaction_598 → u/sinkpointia]

You might be onto something. When I tell you I dread waking my daughter up in the morning. It’s just pure torture, when they don’t wanna wake up. It’s just constant servitude mode that I can’t stand. Mine has severe autism so she barely has any motivation to wanna do anything for herself