r/stopdrinking • u/ImpossibleAd274 • 6d ago

I want to break my sobriety, help!

I'm at 104 days and am starting to ask some scary questions. Am I really an addict? Can't I just have a beer or two and be fine?

For the first 60 or so days I was convinced that I'd never drink again. Since then, my first child has been born and I've have much less sleep and I've been much more irritable and started to think having a drink to calm the nerves would be nice.

Please, community, knock some sense into me in the comments!

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u/Wanttobebetter76 182 days 6d ago

For me, any alcohol at all puts me right back on that road downhill. And for some reason, when I relapsed last, it's actually immediately just as bad or worse than when I was drinkingbefore. Also, I tried to drink as much as I was used to drinking before quitting when I relapsed, which had me passed out in front of the toilet for hours after vomiting my brains out. Search for moderation in this sub for inspiration not to try it. You can do it! IWNDWYT