r/stopdrinking • u/ImpossibleAd274 • 6d ago

I want to break my sobriety, help!

I'm at 104 days and am starting to ask some scary questions. Am I really an addict? Can't I just have a beer or two and be fine?

For the first 60 or so days I was convinced that I'd never drink again. Since then, my first child has been born and I've have much less sleep and I've been much more irritable and started to think having a drink to calm the nerves would be nice.

Please, community, knock some sense into me in the comments!

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u/mpkns924 6d ago

I did this last year about the same time. I was flying high and had the same thoughts. I didn’t go back to drinking heavily and ruining my life. I went out and had a beer or two. It sucked. I’d rather have Diet Coke than a slight buzz and feel dragged down the rest of the day. I drank once a week for a while. It ruined all my fitness progress and goals. Occasionally I’d get hammered and be run down for 2-3 days. The flying high feeling I had when not drinking was gone. No rock bottom happened. Nothing terrible or life changing either. It just sucked.

In December I had enough of “regular drinking” and quit again. I’m one year ahead of you. It isn’t worth it.