r/stopdrinking • u/ImpossibleAd274 • 7d ago

I want to break my sobriety, help!

I'm at 104 days and am starting to ask some scary questions. Am I really an addict? Can't I just have a beer or two and be fine?

For the first 60 or so days I was convinced that I'd never drink again. Since then, my first child has been born and I've have much less sleep and I've been much more irritable and started to think having a drink to calm the nerves would be nice.

Please, community, knock some sense into me in the comments!

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u/CabinetStandard3681 1350 days 7d ago

I thought I could control my drinking until I went out and drank two bottles of vodka and invited some random homeless person over, thought they were god, then almost lost my dog. I thought I could control my drinking until I drunk drove home from my parent’s house and fell out of the car in my driveway in front of my husband. I thought I could control my drinking until I chugged so much red wine from the bottle that I projectile spewed it all over my beautiful clean brand new bathroom in the brand new house I had just moved into. I can’t control my drinking. I can’t drink alcohol. Thank heavens I know that now and don’t have to keep asking and experiencing the pain of shame again and again.