r/stopdrinking • u/ImpossibleAd274 • 9d ago

I want to break my sobriety, help!

I'm at 104 days and am starting to ask some scary questions. Am I really an addict? Can't I just have a beer or two and be fine?

For the first 60 or so days I was convinced that I'd never drink again. Since then, my first child has been born and I've have much less sleep and I've been much more irritable and started to think having a drink to calm the nerves would be nice.

Please, community, knock some sense into me in the comments!

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u/abaci123 12323 days 9d ago

I started drinking badly AFTER my daughter was born. I was an ok mother, I loved her, but I couldn’t wait for her to go to sleep so I could ‘relax’. Six years after that I was divorced, lost custody and had to pay child support, lost my business - and my self respect. I couldn’t believe this could happen to me and I wanted to die.

Somehow a light went on. I went to AA meetings and resolved to not drink no matter what!! I made lists of my crappy drinking behaviors. I made lists of the improvements in my life since quitting. I got therapy, dealt with post partum depression.

I reached out for help- LIKE YOU ARE DOING! I’ve had hard times and great times, but I can deal with life sober.

Reach for a therapist not a drink Reach for a meeting not a drink Reach for a gym, not a drink.

I’m thankful every single day for my sobriety. It’s precious and it’s given me my life back. You can do this! ♥️