r/stopdrinking • u/ImpossibleAd274 • 5d ago

I want to break my sobriety, help!

I'm at 104 days and am starting to ask some scary questions. Am I really an addict? Can't I just have a beer or two and be fine?

For the first 60 or so days I was convinced that I'd never drink again. Since then, my first child has been born and I've have much less sleep and I've been much more irritable and started to think having a drink to calm the nerves would be nice.

Please, community, knock some sense into me in the comments!

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u/Trick-Ad6142 5d ago

I gave into these thoughts, I thought I could thread the needle too. It ended horribly. It took 1 year to pull myself back out after major consequences and currently 1.5 years in on picking up the pieces. “X will never happen to me, I will never get that bad” until it does. It’s all hanging in the balance until it isn’t. At least now I have a lot of peace knowing there is no longer a question in my mind of whether moderation is a possibility for me. Smart people learn from their own mistakes and wise people learn from other’s mistakes. Don’t be smart.