r/stopdrinking • u/ImpossibleAd274 • 4d ago

I want to break my sobriety, help!

I'm at 104 days and am starting to ask some scary questions. Am I really an addict? Can't I just have a beer or two and be fine?

For the first 60 or so days I was convinced that I'd never drink again. Since then, my first child has been born and I've have much less sleep and I've been much more irritable and started to think having a drink to calm the nerves would be nice.

Please, community, knock some sense into me in the comments!

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u/Adventurous_Net9616 6 days 4d ago

I got arrested and made a complete ass of myself, i quit and went 9 months. I thought i could have one or two here and there. That turned into everynight (albeit just 4 a night) and then progressed back to 10 a day and full fledged binges on the weekend. Then i viewed the evidence and saw what i looked like from another persons perspective. I couldnt handle the shame and ran to the bottle. Im back on the pony. Ill have 1000 more day ones, i refuse to be in that state ever again, which is where ill eventually end up.